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Any update from her? I sent her a pm about three weeks or so ago and didn’t hear back.
Anthony’s Mom, thinking of and praying for you, dear soul.
Anthony’s Mom, thinking of and praying for you, dear soul.
She made an update in this thread about a month back … I’m praying for a miracle … my heart aches for her.Any update from her? I sent her a pm about three weeks or so ago and didn’t hear back.
Anthony’s Mom, thinking of and praying for you, dear soul.
Dear Anthony’s Mom, if I had the courage as another brave soul here has, I’d offer my life for yours too.Dear Everyone,
Thank you so much for your prayers. I do read all of them and can’t tell you how much they mean to me. I lurk on here, but haven’t posted in a long time. Since October, all I’ve received was grim news from my doctors. Nothing good or hopeful at all to share…
Since the last time I posted, my cancer has spread through my body, and I’ve also developed blood clots in my lungs and in my limbs. I’ve seen numerous doctors who all agree that I have an incurable cancer that doesn’t respond to chemotherapy. I haven’t qualified for any clinical trials because my cancer is “unusual”. I was also hospitalized a couple of times (one time for multiple pulmonary embolisms caused by the cancer).
I’m on strictly palliative care now, since I’ve been told that there’s no more that the doctors can do for me, besides manage my pain until I succumb to the cancer. I’ve tried alternative treatments (cannabis oil, which I still do), but can’t see any improvement.
I take a handful of opioid painkiller tablets every day (along with 3 different laxatives daily because the opioids cause constipation). I will be seeing my pain management doctor soon, to increase my dosage or switch to a stronger painkiller. My oncologist says that once my pain becomes unmanageable with pills, I’ll be ready to go into hospice care. The pain is paralyzing at times, and I would be lying if I didn’t admit that I’ve oftentimes begged God to just take me now, and relieve me of this pain. Sadly, my faith has faltered, although I still pray daily. What has kept me going is the love and support of my family and friends, as well as the prayers of the wonderful people of CAF (like you). You’ve all helped keep my faith alive.
Katherine and Lormar, your PMs actually came at a good time, because I just saw my oncologist the day before yesterday. For literally the first time in months, he actually had some hopeful news to share with me. He mentioned that a new immunotherapy drug was approved just last month, and I MIGHT be able to benefit from it. However, I’ll need to get genetic testing done to see if I’m a candidate for this new drug. I’m currently waiting for a call back from the genetic counselor. I can’t get my hopes up, since I’m not even sure if I’m eligible for this drug. If I do qualify, I don’t even know if it will work. I’ll have to wait and see. But, at least I didn’t get bad news (like what I always expect now). My doctor is doing something other than just waiting for me to die…
I do have mixed feelings if I do qualify to try this drug. All this time, I’ve believed that it wasn’t God’s will for me to recover, and I’ve come to accept it. During all these months of praying for healing, I always heard God’s answer as a loud and clear “NO”. I accepted His will. I was resigned to the fact that I was going to die from this, and made peace with it. Now, I’m not so sure. I so wish that God could make His plans clear to me! It’s really frustrating. I admit, sadly, that I’ve often felt angry and annoyed with God.
Anyway, this is the heads-up about what is going on with me. I thank you so much for you prayers. I’ve been praying for you, and other CAF members. I hope you are well. I’ll write again to update you if my situation changes.
Blessings to you all.
:hug1:Katherine, thank you for alerting me to that post.She made an update in this thread about a month back … I’m praying for a miracle … my heart aches for her.

