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pwlj_christ87
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sometimes, i think to myself, what a drastic change ive made to my self in the past 3 years, of rejoining the church, participating in liturgy and sacraments and completely or at least trying my best to conform to gods will andhis wants for me.
I think about the sacrifices i have made in not associating with friends i had been with for a long time, not going out to certain places, being more alone, living as a monk for months at a time, confusiion, sacraments, repentance, and the like…
i feel that i know i am on the right track, and im glad to be a catholic… but its also scary for me because while certain, i feel uncertain… while i know i shoulld not worry about tommorow, i dont want to be poor,
i want to enter life eternal, but i need to make sure i do gods will here, and sometimes figuringthat out is frustrating, i want to be spitiual but i knowi have to be material as well…
all of this leads me to sometimes think i am cmopeltely crazy, i sometimes think of the “loose living” many do, and dont seem to care, or even ponder about sin in their lives…
does anyone else feel the way i do, or at least at one time was uncertain, how did it all pan out for them?
and also if you can pray for some sin that is remaining in my life, i am so close to eradicating it all and living a holy hopefully 20 plus years from here
I think about the sacrifices i have made in not associating with friends i had been with for a long time, not going out to certain places, being more alone, living as a monk for months at a time, confusiion, sacraments, repentance, and the like…
i feel that i know i am on the right track, and im glad to be a catholic… but its also scary for me because while certain, i feel uncertain… while i know i shoulld not worry about tommorow, i dont want to be poor,
i want to enter life eternal, but i need to make sure i do gods will here, and sometimes figuringthat out is frustrating, i want to be spitiual but i knowi have to be material as well…
all of this leads me to sometimes think i am cmopeltely crazy, i sometimes think of the “loose living” many do, and dont seem to care, or even ponder about sin in their lives…
does anyone else feel the way i do, or at least at one time was uncertain, how did it all pan out for them?
and also if you can pray for some sin that is remaining in my life, i am so close to eradicating it all and living a holy hopefully 20 plus years from here

