ok I am sorted. I sinned, but I am just glad I realised it, and I am sorry for my sin, even if you don’t know it, please forgive me, my brothers and sisters.
I realised, that I went through a spiritual darkness. Then I came across the seven gifts and twelve fruits of the Holy Spirit. Then something rang out inside of me. I was heartbroken, because He has given me all this in the past, and he can give it to me still.
I also looked at the seven spiritual works of mercy, and I thought, ‘wait… I can do that???’ Yea, I can give counsel, I can instruct, for we are called to spread the gospel - the good news - the news of Christ - his life, his passion, death and ressurection - we are called to say God is here! This is the meaning of the word of Gospel, and it is pretty awesome.
I think it started when the priest who listened to my confession said, ‘yea but what is Christ to you?’
I was really flummoxed by that and I sought the past 36 hours trying to sort that out. I have sinned, and it took me a fall to realise how far I needed to look up.
Basically, I realised that to me, He gave me life, he has allowed me to live, he is my breath, and because Christ was also man, he is my breath, because he shared it with me - To me, Christ is life itself, and to deny Him, for me, is to deny that truth that I live, and I live because He loves me, and He loves me because He can. As a result, I love him, because, well, look how much he has done for me! I then realised how much the Magnificat applies to me, and how humbled I am because of it. I also realised how wonderful Mary is, yes I came back to Mary as well, because she herself realised this truth, and took on her task, because she realised that truth - that He loves us, that He is our breath, and if I can relate to that, and by the length of the post, how glad I am because of it, how wonderful Mary must have felt when it was time then, in her lifetime, and her role in such a wonderful thing!
Lastly, a thing I was conflicted about was the nature of Good and Evil, basically, I didn’t know what was Good or Evil, because if God is supposed to be good, and I don’t know God, then how can I know good from evil, I only have me to go on, and I doubt that very much. Yet, whenever we see good, there is God. In response to RAGGANDI, yea that helped, because it helped me to realise that being good, emulates God, because he is good, and therefore being good, loving one another, we are loving God, and it isn’t about ‘Good will lead us to God’, for someone who knows nothing of God, that is relative, because if he doesn’t know Him, then he can just as well be happy being bad. No, being good means allowing life to happen, it allows peace to happen, it allows love to be spread, and it means that we do not die, because evil devours itself, and that is not very logical, is it?
No, being good; loving, caring, peaceful means humanity can live, and by extension, it means God lives here in this world, so wherever you see suffering, there is God because of how you feel towards them - you will most probably mean to help them. This is what it means to be free - no restraints of evil. That is, no means to destroy ourselves, free from evil means free from fear, it means we have infinite breathing space, and that means we have eternal life. So that is what it means to be free, and to freely turn to God - it is to turn and say yes to love - life, itself.
I hope you can forgive me for my sin, not my ignorance or my suffering that I mentioned in the past two posts, I sinned right before this revelation. Sorry.
