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niall
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Please pray for me fervently.
I struggle with scrupulosity in such a way that I fear I am never in a state of grace, and then when the fear of this creeps in, I begin to distrust God and make even matters worse, because of the sin of despair.
There have been periods of this, when I felt I was beyond reach, but it’s never lasted this long before. I am constantly living in fear that I will die/Second Coming will occur before I am able to fix this part of myself, and I will be rejected by God.
I am praying about this, searching for answers everywhere, but nothing seems to work. I try to trust in God’s love, but I always seem to be lead back to the same place everytime. I know it’s ridiculous; if my God being nailed to a tree between 2 criminals does not show His great love, what does? But I still struggle.
I am begging at this point; please pray for me, and please ask all the Saints to pray for me, fervently. I feel like my own distrustful prayers are failing me at this point.
I struggle with scrupulosity in such a way that I fear I am never in a state of grace, and then when the fear of this creeps in, I begin to distrust God and make even matters worse, because of the sin of despair.
There have been periods of this, when I felt I was beyond reach, but it’s never lasted this long before. I am constantly living in fear that I will die/Second Coming will occur before I am able to fix this part of myself, and I will be rejected by God.
I am praying about this, searching for answers everywhere, but nothing seems to work. I try to trust in God’s love, but I always seem to be lead back to the same place everytime. I know it’s ridiculous; if my God being nailed to a tree between 2 criminals does not show His great love, what does? But I still struggle.
I am begging at this point; please pray for me, and please ask all the Saints to pray for me, fervently. I feel like my own distrustful prayers are failing me at this point.