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Cardarlinow4
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Last night I dreamed about my deceased Grandmother.
We had a very strong relationship, I was closer with her than I was my own mother. Its been five years since she passed.
I struggle with anxiety a lot. I have a panic disorder, however I have not had any issues for the last five years or so and I am not medicated. I have been able to keep it in check with therapy and prayer. I do, however, worry a lot about my health (for no reason) and that is a daily struggle and has caused me some problems recently. Nothing that is panic but just keeping me tense through the day.
In my dream, I am at her old house. I know that she has passed in my dream so I do not expect her to be there. When I walk into the door there are two eggs cooking in the stove so I go looking to see who else is at her house. I walk into her bathroom and I see her standing there putting lotion on her face. I am in shock because I know she has died. I ask her what she is doing here. She turns to me, and I ask her to come closer because its been so long that I have forgotten what she looks like. She tells me, “You do not need to worry anymore. You will have a long life.” I told her that I didn’t believe it was really her. That she had to look me in the eye and say it again. She grabbed my face and came closer and said, “You do not need to worry anymore.” I remember looking at her eyes and that they are blue. So so… blue. And then she is gone.
Deep down… of course I want to believe that this is her, talking to me. And that I just had an interaction with her that I have longed for, for a long time. But, level headed I keep telling myself that this is just a dream. I guess I am just looking for some Catholic advice.
I have also had another kind of “dream” a few months ago. Recently I discovered that I have sleep apnea. Before this discovery, one night a few months back, I saw Jesus. I know it sounds bizarre but hear me out. All my life I have had weird sleeping symptoms. I never had seen a sleep doctor or explored them. I suffered from episodes of sleep paraylsis. I also would hallucinate at night. Sometimes I’d see people and other times I’d see spiders or bugs crawling on the wall. They were always in shadow form never in full color. The bugs and spiders very much creeped me out because when my grandmother was terminal I was her care taker until she passed. As she was progressing into death she would complain that she could see bugs on the wall and it frightened her. For some reason, I always thought this was the devil trying to scare her. I dont know how I came to that conclusion. Anyways, One night, I fell asleep… during my sleep I woke up (sort of) I guess I would say I was “lucid dreaming”. I felt myself feeling lighter and lighter. I saw the tunnel and the white light. All the stereotypical things you hear about in near death experiences. At the end of the tunnel I saw a man. Before I could reach him… I heard him say… “It is not time… go back.” Then I felt myself come back down and the light got farther and farther away. When I did wake up… I was choking for air. The physical feelings that I felt ( being lifted and coming back) felt very real and the whole dream and experience stuck with me for many days. After I had this dream, I logically went to the doctor and told them about all my sleep experiences ( not the dream though) and I did a sleep study and found out I have sleep apnea ( where I stop breathing periodically through the night.) And it is most prominent during my REM sleep stage.
I don’t know how to feel about these kinds of dreams when they happen. They can be very confusing. I guess I’m just looking for others opinions and insights.
We had a very strong relationship, I was closer with her than I was my own mother. Its been five years since she passed.
I struggle with anxiety a lot. I have a panic disorder, however I have not had any issues for the last five years or so and I am not medicated. I have been able to keep it in check with therapy and prayer. I do, however, worry a lot about my health (for no reason) and that is a daily struggle and has caused me some problems recently. Nothing that is panic but just keeping me tense through the day.
In my dream, I am at her old house. I know that she has passed in my dream so I do not expect her to be there. When I walk into the door there are two eggs cooking in the stove so I go looking to see who else is at her house. I walk into her bathroom and I see her standing there putting lotion on her face. I am in shock because I know she has died. I ask her what she is doing here. She turns to me, and I ask her to come closer because its been so long that I have forgotten what she looks like. She tells me, “You do not need to worry anymore. You will have a long life.” I told her that I didn’t believe it was really her. That she had to look me in the eye and say it again. She grabbed my face and came closer and said, “You do not need to worry anymore.” I remember looking at her eyes and that they are blue. So so… blue. And then she is gone.
Deep down… of course I want to believe that this is her, talking to me. And that I just had an interaction with her that I have longed for, for a long time. But, level headed I keep telling myself that this is just a dream. I guess I am just looking for some Catholic advice.
I have also had another kind of “dream” a few months ago. Recently I discovered that I have sleep apnea. Before this discovery, one night a few months back, I saw Jesus. I know it sounds bizarre but hear me out. All my life I have had weird sleeping symptoms. I never had seen a sleep doctor or explored them. I suffered from episodes of sleep paraylsis. I also would hallucinate at night. Sometimes I’d see people and other times I’d see spiders or bugs crawling on the wall. They were always in shadow form never in full color. The bugs and spiders very much creeped me out because when my grandmother was terminal I was her care taker until she passed. As she was progressing into death she would complain that she could see bugs on the wall and it frightened her. For some reason, I always thought this was the devil trying to scare her. I dont know how I came to that conclusion. Anyways, One night, I fell asleep… during my sleep I woke up (sort of) I guess I would say I was “lucid dreaming”. I felt myself feeling lighter and lighter. I saw the tunnel and the white light. All the stereotypical things you hear about in near death experiences. At the end of the tunnel I saw a man. Before I could reach him… I heard him say… “It is not time… go back.” Then I felt myself come back down and the light got farther and farther away. When I did wake up… I was choking for air. The physical feelings that I felt ( being lifted and coming back) felt very real and the whole dream and experience stuck with me for many days. After I had this dream, I logically went to the doctor and told them about all my sleep experiences ( not the dream though) and I did a sleep study and found out I have sleep apnea ( where I stop breathing periodically through the night.) And it is most prominent during my REM sleep stage.
I don’t know how to feel about these kinds of dreams when they happen. They can be very confusing. I guess I’m just looking for others opinions and insights.
He did tell me at some point that I should find some else because he did not want to get into the really personal stuff. He compared it to being like hearing confessions from family members. So I have been trying to find one myself that I can open to. I have tried a few but for some reason or another it has not worked out so it is something I am still praying for. I am sure when the time is right God will lead me to whom ever it is I need to open up to. The funny thing is that right now I do not have the need to speak face to face with anyone yet. I do trust though that if it comes to that He will have the right soul there ready and waiting…So if being here makes you start getting that nagging feeling like you need to talk to someone I would say just give it a shot,…
Try talking to Father and if he can he will help you and if he ever reaches a point that he is not he will referred you to some one else. Glad to read that following my gut helped in some way.