I have recently gone through a long chain of spiritual dryness and it was awful! I seriously was depressed, angry, and frustrated. There were times where I just reverted back to my old atheist way of thinking for a little while. Just recently, however, something happened. Something amazing. I was praying in front of the crucifix in my room, on my knees. I said something along the lines of “Lord make yourself known to me. Fill me with the Holy Spirit. Let me hear your voice, Jesus.” I got up, kissed the feet of the crucifix, and went to the bathroom. I didn’t feel any different after praying. I still felt dry, and forsaken, but suddenly as I entered the bathroom a wave of immense warmth and love came over me. I fell to my knees crying, and I thanked the Lord. I then rested on my bed, and heard a voice inside of me say, “I love you, I love you, I love you”.
God is great, my friend. Your dryness will lead you to spiritual growth, and amazing experiences. Please take your periods of dryness and use them as a way to grow closer to the Lord. Study to relinquish your doubt. Pray for the Holy Spirit to come into you. Pray to hear the voice of Christ. Use this time to come closer to God. When in a desert you must cling onto the hope that there is an oasis somewhere among the dunes.
Go and pray now. Get on your knees, point your fingers up to the heavens, and just pray to God. Don’t just say hymns, but actually talk to him as if he were a friend sitting in front of you. Talk to him about your life, your struggles, your feelings. He will listen. He knit you in your mother’s womb. He knows everything about you. He will understand everything you have to say. Go now and pray.
God bless.
