Spiritual Warfare

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It seems I’m asking for prayer a lot (to me). I have to tell you in the past year I’ve asked more help with prayer then in my entire life. 🙂

That’s a good thing!

The bad part is the closer it gets to Easter the more I feel as if I’m under some kind of spiritual attack. Either that or I’m finally losing my mind.

I’m being confirmed into the church during Easter Vigil (for a little background). I’ve been pretty set in this path from the start, but I have been struggling with RCIA. The most recent real troubles have been friends and acquaintances who are determined to stop me from joining the Church (I’ve made posts about those experiences as well. 🙂 ). Before that I was having issues of feeling ill in Mass (which has also been sorted out, in fact I haven’t had any problems at Mass since I asked you guys to pray for me! Thank you!).

Not that these other issues aren’t ‘real’, but they are something nobody else can be witness to.

It started with just these weird thoughts/feelings, general sense of doom, that I’d randomly get while going about my day. Yesterday, for example, I just had this sudden sensation that something was standing beside me… and I felt like at any moment I was going to be pounced on (and not in a nice way). It was pretty overpowering, but I ignored it and continued what I was doing and eventually the sensation went away.

This doesn’t happen often, just in the past month, I get these sudden sensations that I’m being ‘menaced’… that something in my presence hates me and wants to hurt me. It’s a really bizarre feeling and makes me feel very uneasy but I just ignore it and push on with life.

On top of that in the past two weeks something new has started… Eh, something completely new. In my 28 years of life I’ve never experienced anything like it. Randomly these really intense images will pop into my head (of a sexual nature), even when I’m around guys I don’t find attractive! It’s bizarre. They’re really powerful, so intense it’s almost like having second sight… one eye is seeing reality, the other eye is seeing this vision. The feeling of being menaced bothered me a bit but these latest ‘visions’ are VERY disturbing to me. They’re so intense, they pop up just out of the blue (I’m NEVER expecting them), and they leave me feeling very disturbed and disgusted.

I’ve never been the type to look at others lustfully (my friends actually call me asexual - haha), so I really wasn’t sure how to handle all this. Prayer, of course, seems the best solution.

You guys probably think I’m a complete nutter after my posts. Haha.

Anyway, if you can please remember me in your prayers. I’m confident this will die off once I have been Confirmed and brought into the Church, but in the meantime it’s not the most pleasant stuff to deal with.

Thank you!
 
Praying for you nickybr38.

You’re not alone in having disturbing thoughts pop into your head.
Many people experience these sorts of things.

Hail Mary, full of grace, the Lord is with thee.
Blessed art thou among women and
blessed is the Fruit of thy womb, Jesus.
Holy Mary, Mother of God, pray for us sinners
now and at the hour of our death. Amen.
 
I wanted to reassure you that some of what you are describing can be explained as due to anxiety. Unpleasant images ‘popping’ into your mind are common in people with high anxiety levels; even if they don’t think that they are anxious.

You have absolutely nothing to be afraid of. I believe that it was Father Amorth who said that we should not be afraid of the already defeated!

I am very pleased that prayer is so helpful. Please pray for me too! God Bless.

Praying for you.

Our Father, who art in Heaven
Hallowed be thy name
Thy Kingdom come, Thy Will be done
On earth as it is in Heaven.
Give us this day, our daily bread
And forgive us our trespasses
As we forgive those who trespass against us
And lead us not into temptation
But deliver us from evil. Amen

Hail Mary, full of grace.
The Lord is with thee.
Blessed art thou among women,
and blessed is the fruit of thy womb,
Jesus.
Holy Mary, Mother of God,
pray for us sinners,
now and at the hour of our death.
Amen.

Remember, O most gracious Virgin Mary, that never was it known that anyone who fled to your protection, implored your help, or sought your intercession, was left unaided. Inspired by this confidence, I fly unto you, O Virgin of virgins, my Mother. To you do I come, before you I stand, sinful and sorrowful. O Mother of the Word Incarnate, despise not my petitions, but in your mercy, hear and answer me. Amen

Glory to God,
Source of all being,
Eternal Word and Holy Spirit,
As it was in the beginning,
Is now and shall be forever.
Amen
 
Memorare (Prayer to Our Lady)
Remember, O most gracious Virgin Mary, that never was it known that anyone who fled to your protection, implored your help, or sought your intercession, was left unaided.
Inspired by this confidence, I fly unto you, O Virgin of virgins, my Mother. To you do I come, before you I stand, sinful and sorrowful. O Mother of the Word Incarnate, despise not my petitions, but in your mercy, hear and answer me. Amen
 
St. Teresa of Jesus+ “I know by frequent experience that there is nothing which puts the devils to flight like holy water.” Keep a vial or small bottle of holy water with you wherever you go, and when these thoughts/feelings/visions occur, make the Sign of the Cross with it like you would in church. I will keep you in my prayers.
 
Hail Mary, full of grace.
The Lord is with thee.
Blessed art thou among women,
and blessed is the fruit of thy womb,
Jesus.
Holy Mary, Mother of God,
pray for us sinners,
now and at the hour of our death.
Amen.
 
Thank you guys. 🙂

I never considered it could be anxiety based BUT considering all the personal stuff I have to deal with right now (friends attacking the Church, financial problems, etc) I suppose it is a possibility. It’s just kind of weird the nature of the ‘second’ problem… not sure why anxiety would unleash lusty thoughts but I guess it’s possible? The whole feeling menaced every now and then could definitely be anxiety based, I’m just curious why it would only happen when I’m in situations where I feel most relaxed and comfortable (at home, in my car, whenever I let my guard down basically).

Either way, anxiety based or supernatural attack, prayer will help. So I appreciate the help. Thank you!
 
Praying for you to persevere in faith and to keep up the fight against the devil. May your Guardian Angel protect you from all harm and help you to endure the difficult trials you mention. May you find strength in prayer and from reading good Catholic books, and may these trials you are going through only strengthen you in faith. May you know that the devil is angry that you will be fully initiated in the Church but really can not harm you because you are being faithful to God. May God bless you and keep you as the apple of his eye. Amen.
 
Memorare (Prayer to Our Lady)
Remember, O most gracious Virgin Mary, that never was it known that anyone who fled to your protection, implored your help, or sought your intercession, was left unaided.
Inspired by this confidence, I fly unto you, O Virgin of virgins, my Mother. To you do I come, before you I stand, sinful and sorrowful. O Mother of the Word Incarnate, despise not my petitions, but in your mercy, hear and answer me. Amen
 
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