Spirituality - feeling split down the middle

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Would you pray for me? There are so many in need of prayer for real catastrophies in their lives, that I hardly feel right asking for prayer…

But I have been struggling with my faith walk and giving into temptations for 2 months. I need to go to confession, but at the moment, I don’t know if I could even make a good confession. I literally feel like two persons. One ready to give myself completely to God and one who is steadfastly holding on to my sin.
 
I will definitely pray for you, but I think focusing and contemplating Our Lord’s passion will help you with your situation.
 
No one is unimportant to God. Of course I will pray for you, and kindly pray for me as well, if you can. Do not get too discouraged. The desire to pray and be reconciled is the start of grace working. God bless you.
 
Sometimes when I have felt as you describe, the problem was that I was not making a decision. I mean, there are times when I just have to say, come heck or high water, *this is what I will do! * Sometimes I have to consider why i am hanging on to that sin, to look beneath the sin itself to grapple with something deeper, like if I am eating too much, it might be because I am filled with self-pity, or maybe bored, or something else.

And as someone else suggested, praying the Sorrowful mysteries or meditating on Christ’s suffering and death helps me to put my “sorrows” in perspective!
 
It was Saint Augustine who famously wrote, “Lord, make me chaste, but not yet.”

It is not uncommon throughout our spiritual journey to fall into sin of one form or another and to not feel the remorse for that sin. What do we do when this happens? When we know we should feel badly and should promise with resolve to sin no more and should go to confession but simply don’t?

Have the courage to pray for sorrow. Let God know that you wished you didn’t want to hold on to the sin, but that you honestly do want to hold on to it. Contemplate on that. Ask yourself why. So much truth will be revealed in your heart. You will not be conflicted for very long. 🙂

I had a priest tell me to verbally promise to God each day that I would not do a particular thing that I had been struggling with. He told me to say it out loud, “Lord, I promise you with all of my heart that I will not do ‘fill in the blank’”. I’ll tell you what: breaking a promise that you had just made to God feels pretty awful and it’s terribly hard to do. Just a suggestion. 👍
 
Thank you all for your kind replies. You have given me some good advice, encouragement and prayers and I am very appreciative.
 
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