Someone said that I was young and loyal to my parents, that is true. I am 19 and I am extremely loyal to my parents as I should be. But that does not mean that I am exaggerating or lying. My mother new when she left the SSPX, when it left the Church, that her family would stay and that there would be a rift “They will be divided, father against son and son against father, mother against daughter and daughter against mother”, but she knew that she had to follow Rome. “Thou art Peter and upon this rock I will build my Church and the gates of hell shall not prevail against it.”
It was my mother’s sister who said that she could not fathom why God had given my mother six children only so that she could lead them to hell. It was my mother’s sister who, when my sister and I went over to Germany to help her during her last month of pregnancy with her four other children all under age 6, who wouldn’t take us to the local mass that was in union with Rome, so we had to walk over a mile each way, even though she had promised my mother that she would take us.
We do not prefer the NO, we have seen many abuses, my father has corrected many priests and choir directors, we have walked out of many masses; but we know that it is our duty to stay with Rome, so we continue to fight. That is why my father is insisting that all of us get a Catholic liberal arts education before we get our degrees, he wants us to have the college education to back up our words when we confront these people who cause the abuses.
I’m not looking for sympathy, I have dealt with it all my life, I am just trying to show the truth of the situation. My SSPX family lives in St. Marys, KS, that is one of the SSPX’s main hubs in the USA. Most of the people in St. Marys have the same attitude as my aunts and uncles and grandparents. When we lived there, none of my mother’s old friends from when she was in the SSPX, would talk to us because we went to the FSSP mass, or the NO, and because my mom wore pants and shorts. It isn’t a myth, this is real, though I know it sounds like something out of some weird movie.
They are like the Pharisees, they are so concerned with the rules, they forget the spirit of the law. They are so concerned with making sure they don’t even associate with people outside the SSPX, that they forget that person is their own flesh and blood. It is really strange.
I am just writing this because I feel that I have a unique perspective of the SSPX.
I prefer the EF, but I go to the OF because it is the right thing to do. I have family in the SSPX and my parents long to give in and live the easy life in the SSPX, but instead they have taught us to argue and prove ourselves to priests, bishops, and anyone else who crosses the line. Until I was 9 I attended mostly FSSP, then EWTN’s hybrid, then a really reverent NO, then now in Vegas, it is a weekly struggle to find a good mass. I have family in the SSPX, I have lived in a SSPX town, my grandfather owns a business that employs only SSPX members, I have a mother who was disowned by family and friends simply because she goes to a mass in a different language.
I have a unique perspective, it is a true perspective, I wish there was more hope for the SSPX, but they are so stubbornly wrong.
I said earlier that my priest was trying to learn Latin, I was corrected, he must just be trying to learn the EF, sorry I was just told that he was studying and trying to learn so he could say a EF.
Have a good day everyone, continue to pray for more workers in the vineyard.
