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lynnehelen
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I want to report that I just learned of the Memorare to St. Joseph and encountered difficiulty praying it after at first finding much success. I was never aware of St. Joseph and his special power.
I realized I “blanked out” on Joseph, foster-father of the Redeemer, not understanding the importance of his role in the playing out of the story of Christ’s life.
I realized, please forgive me, Lord, that somewhere in my heart I secretly despised him, in my doubt and fear, according to the words of a current, popular Christian song about him which expresses the thoughts I was too scared to address: “How must you have felt when they all said, “There goes Mary’s fool.”” Even while i did not doubt the Virgin Mary, although I feared to approach her or the Catholic Church because I did not know her as my “mama” as someone on this site put it, at the same time I speculated (I used to sit around thinking way too much for many reasons) about just those ideas expressed, as I have said, in the song.
I want to report also that I immediately addressed my difficulty with this issue of having difficulty with praying the Memore to St. Joseph, and that it is shaking and reworking my faith to the foundations. I know well and believe without any doubt about the angel appearing to St. Joseph, and all that he did according to what was spoken to him, in Jesus’s early life in his charge, and for St. Mary. I have thoroughly read and reread about it, and realize without fear or uncertainty the veracity of what is written about Joseph and Mary and Jesus during Jesus’s early life, and especially about St. Joseph.
I am writing this because I understood at once the connection between this difficulty, these uncertainties and doubts I was too scared to voice, were at the heart of the sarcasm and cynicism which plagued me during my youth and kept me from being able to live my faith.
I am praying HARD now to St. Joseph for his power, protection, and bounty, in accordance with the words of the Memore to St. Joseph, for help with the family situation about which I have been posting many prayer requests; he was the missing factor.
A little shaken (I kept giggling as I tried to pray! and I thought, what?), I am walking a less certain but more faithful walk.
I don’t know if it will help anybody to read this but i wanted to explain these feelings to somebody.
I realized I “blanked out” on Joseph, foster-father of the Redeemer, not understanding the importance of his role in the playing out of the story of Christ’s life.
I realized, please forgive me, Lord, that somewhere in my heart I secretly despised him, in my doubt and fear, according to the words of a current, popular Christian song about him which expresses the thoughts I was too scared to address: “How must you have felt when they all said, “There goes Mary’s fool.”” Even while i did not doubt the Virgin Mary, although I feared to approach her or the Catholic Church because I did not know her as my “mama” as someone on this site put it, at the same time I speculated (I used to sit around thinking way too much for many reasons) about just those ideas expressed, as I have said, in the song.
I want to report also that I immediately addressed my difficulty with this issue of having difficulty with praying the Memore to St. Joseph, and that it is shaking and reworking my faith to the foundations. I know well and believe without any doubt about the angel appearing to St. Joseph, and all that he did according to what was spoken to him, in Jesus’s early life in his charge, and for St. Mary. I have thoroughly read and reread about it, and realize without fear or uncertainty the veracity of what is written about Joseph and Mary and Jesus during Jesus’s early life, and especially about St. Joseph.
I am writing this because I understood at once the connection between this difficulty, these uncertainties and doubts I was too scared to voice, were at the heart of the sarcasm and cynicism which plagued me during my youth and kept me from being able to live my faith.
I am praying HARD now to St. Joseph for his power, protection, and bounty, in accordance with the words of the Memore to St. Joseph, for help with the family situation about which I have been posting many prayer requests; he was the missing factor.
A little shaken (I kept giggling as I tried to pray! and I thought, what?), I am walking a less certain but more faithful walk.
I don’t know if it will help anybody to read this but i wanted to explain these feelings to somebody.
I would say, don’t worry to much about your early misconceptions. He is in Heaven and honestly, I sometimes feel when we are confused about saints they pray for us more. I mean, why not? We need it more then say someone with better understanding. He is probably praying a lot for you just so he can help you more!