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lynnehelen
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I woke up at 3 and have been praying for an hour.
What it keeps coming down to is 3 things: an unjust accusation (the bogus restraining order in 2000 which accused ME of abusing my son because I took him with me to a domestic violence shelter to avoid my husband’s abuse) and the problem of praying where the government and legal system come in and there is something about how you have to suspend your legal beliefs to submit to the police and justice system, it’s hard to explain what I mean, but that restraining order just doesn’t go away, even though it was based on perjury and my husband later asked for it to be removed.
2nd, the abortions. This is a hurt which should never have happened that just doesn’t go away. It’s been twenty years and it’s like they’re still kicking me in the gut screaming “No, mommy, No!” It just doesn’t go away.
3rd, the red tape involved in the business my father was involved in (high-tech in the 60’s thru 80’s), and the corruption in that industry it continues to protect. My father’s company was disbanded in an anti-trust suit in the early 80’s because of corruption, and it is reflected in how the family’s of the “egghead” employees got treated. From the beginning, once I tried to start getting some help with my life by doing something as simple as going to talk to a psychologist, I got put behind the 8-ball. I have NEVER, in 29 years of treatment for mental health issues, gotten a fair hearing. I get blocked by my parents and other forces. I believe it has something to do with trade secrets and how if the truth about my family had gotten around at any time, even now, the industry would suffer (just) damage (as the truth was suppressed when I needed it told in order to get desperately needed help.) I don’t really trust my present therapist. I think he’s really, really, really nice cuz he doesn’t want to get sued for how my life blew up when I first started seeing him and he didn’t really give a hoot. My husband was telling me to commit suicide. And then I did. After my son’s eye injury and the disastrous trip to the U.K. My husband forced me to fly there and abandon my son to set up a fraudulent bank account so he could do business there, using my U.K. citizenship. He already got U.S. citizenship out of me. And “life-work” from my father because of which he, my husband, shows allegiance to him instead of to me, and to my mother too, and that has been the caae all along.
I still can’t go near the issue of the eye injury. A dart in the white of the eyeball, 2 mm from the brain. And I had begged and avoided for a month going to England because of my son’s problems, but my husband causally suggested, “Maybe we should get a divorce,” when I said I wouldn’t go. The suicide attempt came after. There are family “friends” involved with whom I already had a battle. Now I just put Jesus between me and them whenever they come to mind, it all hurts so much.
Urgent present situation is that I am rapidly running out of money, husband is threatening to take steps to throw son out within two weeks, won’t give us a dime, I just paid the $2000 for my son’s medical insurance premium out of the money I had left and I have been trusting in God about the finances, I do have a lawyer, but so does my husband, and they already stalled the divorce proceeding I filed, and he keeps me daydreaming about getting back together while telling me all about his girlfriend, her son, and their pit bull. About my son he stated last night, “I hate that kid.”
This is a sick situation, please help with your prayers. I will probably be looking into welfare today. My husband has plenty of money and a chunk of it legally belongs to me but I can’t get it. Legal system broken.
What it keeps coming down to is 3 things: an unjust accusation (the bogus restraining order in 2000 which accused ME of abusing my son because I took him with me to a domestic violence shelter to avoid my husband’s abuse) and the problem of praying where the government and legal system come in and there is something about how you have to suspend your legal beliefs to submit to the police and justice system, it’s hard to explain what I mean, but that restraining order just doesn’t go away, even though it was based on perjury and my husband later asked for it to be removed.
2nd, the abortions. This is a hurt which should never have happened that just doesn’t go away. It’s been twenty years and it’s like they’re still kicking me in the gut screaming “No, mommy, No!” It just doesn’t go away.
3rd, the red tape involved in the business my father was involved in (high-tech in the 60’s thru 80’s), and the corruption in that industry it continues to protect. My father’s company was disbanded in an anti-trust suit in the early 80’s because of corruption, and it is reflected in how the family’s of the “egghead” employees got treated. From the beginning, once I tried to start getting some help with my life by doing something as simple as going to talk to a psychologist, I got put behind the 8-ball. I have NEVER, in 29 years of treatment for mental health issues, gotten a fair hearing. I get blocked by my parents and other forces. I believe it has something to do with trade secrets and how if the truth about my family had gotten around at any time, even now, the industry would suffer (just) damage (as the truth was suppressed when I needed it told in order to get desperately needed help.) I don’t really trust my present therapist. I think he’s really, really, really nice cuz he doesn’t want to get sued for how my life blew up when I first started seeing him and he didn’t really give a hoot. My husband was telling me to commit suicide. And then I did. After my son’s eye injury and the disastrous trip to the U.K. My husband forced me to fly there and abandon my son to set up a fraudulent bank account so he could do business there, using my U.K. citizenship. He already got U.S. citizenship out of me. And “life-work” from my father because of which he, my husband, shows allegiance to him instead of to me, and to my mother too, and that has been the caae all along.
I still can’t go near the issue of the eye injury. A dart in the white of the eyeball, 2 mm from the brain. And I had begged and avoided for a month going to England because of my son’s problems, but my husband causally suggested, “Maybe we should get a divorce,” when I said I wouldn’t go. The suicide attempt came after. There are family “friends” involved with whom I already had a battle. Now I just put Jesus between me and them whenever they come to mind, it all hurts so much.
Urgent present situation is that I am rapidly running out of money, husband is threatening to take steps to throw son out within two weeks, won’t give us a dime, I just paid the $2000 for my son’s medical insurance premium out of the money I had left and I have been trusting in God about the finances, I do have a lawyer, but so does my husband, and they already stalled the divorce proceeding I filed, and he keeps me daydreaming about getting back together while telling me all about his girlfriend, her son, and their pit bull. About my son he stated last night, “I hate that kid.”
This is a sick situation, please help with your prayers. I will probably be looking into welfare today. My husband has plenty of money and a chunk of it legally belongs to me but I can’t get it. Legal system broken.