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Kathrin
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Do you think I did the right thing?
I lit a candle at church today. I had another intention but didn’t have any more change so i thought I’d just pray for that intention and light a candle maybe another time.
Later I thought: Maybe on the way back I’ll go by the church again with change. The church is near the train station. I thought I could take a train back that would give me time to run to the church before I catch my bus.
In town, I rescued a pigeon that had been entangled in a string. So I missed that train and got the one where I had take the bus right away. Now I was struggling! Should I go light the candle and miss the bus, walk home thorugh the drizzle instead 8it’s not that long. Or wait for the next bus, but then I’d be home later and that would cause some stress maybe.
I messaged a friend (actually he happens to be the one the prayer was meant to be for, but I didn’t tell him) and he said if I think too long about something it is usually a compulsion, if It feels like one.
So I took the bus home and didn’t light the candle because priests too have told me before not to give in to compulsions!
Now still I am wondering: Should I have gone, because it was a good intention after all, and I was just too lazy? Or selfish: i also wanted to be home so I could help prepare my food, see we are having a family dinner and I as a veggie am cooking something separate for myself).
Did I not do it out of laziness or selfishness? i think I did not do it because I didn’t want to give in to a compulsion, but I am not sure.
And then the thought: It was partly because I helped th epigeon. So did I sin because I put an animal first?
But then, it’s not like my friend was entangled in strings and I rescued an animal instead of him. I can pray for him without a candle too right? Which I have done.
Or do you think I did wrong? Still time to go back before the church closes.
Any thoughts so very welcome!
Kathrin
I lit a candle at church today. I had another intention but didn’t have any more change so i thought I’d just pray for that intention and light a candle maybe another time.
Later I thought: Maybe on the way back I’ll go by the church again with change. The church is near the train station. I thought I could take a train back that would give me time to run to the church before I catch my bus.
In town, I rescued a pigeon that had been entangled in a string. So I missed that train and got the one where I had take the bus right away. Now I was struggling! Should I go light the candle and miss the bus, walk home thorugh the drizzle instead 8it’s not that long. Or wait for the next bus, but then I’d be home later and that would cause some stress maybe.
I messaged a friend (actually he happens to be the one the prayer was meant to be for, but I didn’t tell him) and he said if I think too long about something it is usually a compulsion, if It feels like one.
So I took the bus home and didn’t light the candle because priests too have told me before not to give in to compulsions!
Now still I am wondering: Should I have gone, because it was a good intention after all, and I was just too lazy? Or selfish: i also wanted to be home so I could help prepare my food, see we are having a family dinner and I as a veggie am cooking something separate for myself).
Did I not do it out of laziness or selfishness? i think I did not do it because I didn’t want to give in to a compulsion, but I am not sure.
And then the thought: It was partly because I helped th epigeon. So did I sin because I put an animal first?
But then, it’s not like my friend was entangled in strings and I rescued an animal instead of him. I can pray for him without a candle too right? Which I have done.
Or do you think I did wrong? Still time to go back before the church closes.
Any thoughts so very welcome!
Kathrin
