Blood Rain:
Unless one lives in my diocese where we have been (incorrectly) instructed to stand until the EMEs go to the Echaristic chapel (in the back). No one kneels except for visitors and me. The liturgist doing the “catechesis” disparagingly refered to this as “me and Jesus time”
I find it interesting that your liturgist made that comment. I am an RCIA candidate who will make my public Profession of Faith and be confirmed on Saturday, having already made a private Profession of Faith and received first Holy Communion on February 13.
The arrival of Lent had brought me to somewhat of a spiritual “crisis” in my journey to the Church and I had felt God calling me
very strongly to repentance in many areas of my life. I also sensed, deep inside, that nothing was really going to change until I was able to receive the graces that are only available through the Sacraments, especially confession and the Eucharist. I made an appointment with my pastor on Ash Wednesday and had a long discussion with him about where I was at and where I felt God wanted me to be. I pleaded with him to be allowed to receive Communion early so I wouldn’t have to go through the entire Lenten season “stuck” in the place I was. After hearing me out he suddenly sat back, looked me in the eye and said “Rhonda, there is no way I, as a pastor, could deny the Eucharist to someone who has asked for it so sincerely and with so much faith. It is a gift Jesus gave to us and you have the right to receive it.” So I went to confession the following Saturday and received my first Communion the next day on the first Sunday of Lent. My hunger to receive Jesus was and is so strong that I have been attending daily Mass since then and have only missed two or three days.
I tell you all that to explain why the comment of your liturgist interested me. Before I received my first Communion my pastor had taught me how to make an “Act of Spiritual Communion” when the others went forward to receive. In our diocese our bishop has also decided that we are to remain standing until everyone has received and the Host has been returned to the Tabernacle. Even so, during every “Act of Spiritual Communion” that I had made, I had knelt as I prayed. I couldn’t really say why. It just seemed like the right thing to do. Also during those times I had prayed to be united not only to Jesus but to all my brothers and sisters gathered in that place. And I had felt, deep in my heart, that Jesus had answered those prayers and that I
was bound to them in some mysterious way, even though I couldn’t yet receive Communion with them.
The interesting thing is all that changed, without my really even making a conscious decision to change it, after I finally received my first Communion. I stood as I waited to go forward and I stood after receiving until our priest sat down. I no longer knelt at all during Communion until I knelt after Mass was concluded and I went to the chapel to continue to pray.
When I think about why I do that now, I realize that it all comes down to obedience. Our bishop wants us all to remain standing and feels it is important for us all to be united in our posture as we are united with Jesus and each other. I’m forced to wonder whether actually receiving Communion somehow brought me more in union
with him as the shepherd Christ has placed over our diocese and made me more willing to be obedient to him.
And isn’t that what Communion is all about? Isn’t it a very visible sign of our unity in Christ and the faith? Yes, we are all receiving Jesus as individuals and He is coming in a very intimate way to each of us but we are doing it **as a community. **Isn’t it true that in each Eucharistic prayer we pray that our unity wll be strengthened through receiving His Body and Blood?
I do have my private “me and Jesus time” after Mass in the chapel when I do kneel but I don’t feel remaining standing after Communion detracts from the experience. Perhaps I would feel differently if I wasn’t a new Catholic and if this was a change from what I had known my entire life. I know that even after my admittedly brief experience with the Mass, I would already feel
very strange if I were now told I had to stand for the Consecration.
That’s why I can understand why this might feel wrong to you. Even so, I feel I am only a small cog in a big wheel and that it is not up to me to make these decisions or to question those who
do have the authority to make them.
In His love,
Rhonda