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Tiffany_M_S
Guest
It has taken a long time for me to come up to this point. Before I decided to become Catholic, I was thinking about becoming Muslim. Not a good idea, I decided, so I went to Mass to find some answers.
I’d been flirting with becoming Catholic for many, many months, coming and going as far as Mass was concerned, but with no real concrete will to live in and with God and Christ, our Lord.
I even received some Islamic literature in the mail today.
However, upon reaching this point, I realize, now, how exhausted I am. I no longer have the energy to do much of anything, spiritually. I am wiped out, and I’m barely in the door, as far as God and Jesus are concerned. All I really want is to be refreshed, somehow, for someone to tell me, “This is what Jesus is. This is what God is. You have been searching for Him, and He has found you.”
So far, I haven’t really received any answers as far as this goes. I’m barely starting to become Catholic, and already, I’ve hit a wall of some kind. I don’t feel like I can go another step. I’ve been wandering for so long that I’ve about had it. I can’t really take anymore of the abuse that I’ve dealt out to myself, and, believe me, I know that this is all my fault. I should have gone to the Church a long time ago, but I was too busy chasing butterflies, and I somehow managed to find myself in a thick, dark forest filled with the lies that other religions supply.
Hell, I’m so exhausted right now that, even if I did know up from down, I wouldn’t care. And I do want to care. I want to be excited about Jesus, but I’m not. I’m just so tired. I’m sorry. I can’t help it. I’ve tried everything. I’ve tried Wicca. That didn’t work. I’ve tried other churches. They didn’t work. I’ve tried Islam. And that didn’t work, either. Dear God, what have I done to myself?
Right now, all I really want is some kind of spiritual drink. A rest that I can take, and wake up in God’s arms, ready to face the day.
I’m not even feeling vulnerable to Satan. I’m just so tired that I feel like I’m going to drop dead, and at this point in time, I don’t care what that jerk gives me. I’m out of gas and in the middle of nowhere.
If anyone of you could tell me where I’m supposed to go, what I’m supposed to do, anything, please give me some (name removed by moderator)ut. I’m sorry, but I don’t think I can do this anymore. I just want to lie down and sleep, but I have such a long way to go just to get through God’s door. I have to be formally received into the Church, I have Confirmation, Eucharist … so many things to do, and I don’t have the energy to do them all.
Somebody, pick me up, dust me off, because I’m losing this fight, and I don’t like the consequences of this mess. Jesus, if you can hear me right now, come and get me, because I’m not doing real well right now, and I’m so tired that I can’t walk anymore. Please, just come down and help me. I can’t do this by myself, and I don’t really want to do this alone.
Sincerely,
Tiffany
I’d been flirting with becoming Catholic for many, many months, coming and going as far as Mass was concerned, but with no real concrete will to live in and with God and Christ, our Lord.
I even received some Islamic literature in the mail today.
However, upon reaching this point, I realize, now, how exhausted I am. I no longer have the energy to do much of anything, spiritually. I am wiped out, and I’m barely in the door, as far as God and Jesus are concerned. All I really want is to be refreshed, somehow, for someone to tell me, “This is what Jesus is. This is what God is. You have been searching for Him, and He has found you.”
So far, I haven’t really received any answers as far as this goes. I’m barely starting to become Catholic, and already, I’ve hit a wall of some kind. I don’t feel like I can go another step. I’ve been wandering for so long that I’ve about had it. I can’t really take anymore of the abuse that I’ve dealt out to myself, and, believe me, I know that this is all my fault. I should have gone to the Church a long time ago, but I was too busy chasing butterflies, and I somehow managed to find myself in a thick, dark forest filled with the lies that other religions supply.
Hell, I’m so exhausted right now that, even if I did know up from down, I wouldn’t care. And I do want to care. I want to be excited about Jesus, but I’m not. I’m just so tired. I’m sorry. I can’t help it. I’ve tried everything. I’ve tried Wicca. That didn’t work. I’ve tried other churches. They didn’t work. I’ve tried Islam. And that didn’t work, either. Dear God, what have I done to myself?
Right now, all I really want is some kind of spiritual drink. A rest that I can take, and wake up in God’s arms, ready to face the day.
I’m not even feeling vulnerable to Satan. I’m just so tired that I feel like I’m going to drop dead, and at this point in time, I don’t care what that jerk gives me. I’m out of gas and in the middle of nowhere.
If anyone of you could tell me where I’m supposed to go, what I’m supposed to do, anything, please give me some (name removed by moderator)ut. I’m sorry, but I don’t think I can do this anymore. I just want to lie down and sleep, but I have such a long way to go just to get through God’s door. I have to be formally received into the Church, I have Confirmation, Eucharist … so many things to do, and I don’t have the energy to do them all.
Somebody, pick me up, dust me off, because I’m losing this fight, and I don’t like the consequences of this mess. Jesus, if you can hear me right now, come and get me, because I’m not doing real well right now, and I’m so tired that I can’t walk anymore. Please, just come down and help me. I can’t do this by myself, and I don’t really want to do this alone.
Sincerely,
Tiffany