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MsJulie22
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I don’t know where to turn. I don’t want to be a burden or sound negative – but I feel some days like giving up on the power of prayer.
I am 30 years old and have struggled through most of my young adulthood, trying to navigate through murky waters. Since I graduated college, I fought for years to secure a good job (pluck not luck will save the day) – battled an eating disorder (still in ongoing therapy and treatment), dealt with a difficult break-up, and almost a year later my youngest brother died of suicide. He suffered PTSD after the Marine Corps.
I have suffered more pain than any young adult I know my age – and constantly find a way to have a positive outlook on life. I preach kindness – humility and try to inspire others to be the best version of themselves. I always live a life that makes me proud, meaning if you’re about to do something and you’re hesitant about it, ask yourself if it’ll make you proud to be you. And yes, you should take pride in failure. It’s about the act itself – are you proud you’re doing it? If the answer is no, step away and be proud you didn’t. Be proud of the things you’ve done in life, but also be proud of the things you’ve refused to do.
My therapist has described me as resilient. I’ve done SO much work on myself this year – and still continue to make progress every day. But, I also want more than anything to find someone who will enhance and compliment my life. After two years of singlehood, I willingly put my own heart in a vice and watched it get crushed. I put myself out there. Every time. Because my end goal is a lifelong partnership, and every relationship is a try-out to cast the star player that will run alongside you on your team of two.
My biggest issue is I can do everything else in life, but this one THING. I’ve had patience for so long. I’ve dated, and dated and dated – and I’m exhausted. I’ve tweaked my online profile, listened to dating advice, dated outside of my comfort zone, even ignored my instincts and I still can’t find anyone. I am just tired of always struggling to “learn lessons.”
I understand that Jesus puts us on this Earth to experience lessons but why are some of us trusted to learn so much? I try to never compare myself to my friends, but I’d love to not have to work for something for a change. Can someone please explain his intent? I’m sick of the bar scene. I am sick of discovering more about myself. I am self-sufficient. If anything, I know how to appreciate life so much more and be present in life. I just wonder why the next phase of my life isn’t happening.
Also – if you can’t get around to answering my question – please pray for Erik, my brother who departed last September 27, 2014… my mom and dad who are going to have the worst day of their lives. I lost my brother, but they lost their son. God bless!
I am 30 years old and have struggled through most of my young adulthood, trying to navigate through murky waters. Since I graduated college, I fought for years to secure a good job (pluck not luck will save the day) – battled an eating disorder (still in ongoing therapy and treatment), dealt with a difficult break-up, and almost a year later my youngest brother died of suicide. He suffered PTSD after the Marine Corps.
I have suffered more pain than any young adult I know my age – and constantly find a way to have a positive outlook on life. I preach kindness – humility and try to inspire others to be the best version of themselves. I always live a life that makes me proud, meaning if you’re about to do something and you’re hesitant about it, ask yourself if it’ll make you proud to be you. And yes, you should take pride in failure. It’s about the act itself – are you proud you’re doing it? If the answer is no, step away and be proud you didn’t. Be proud of the things you’ve done in life, but also be proud of the things you’ve refused to do.
My therapist has described me as resilient. I’ve done SO much work on myself this year – and still continue to make progress every day. But, I also want more than anything to find someone who will enhance and compliment my life. After two years of singlehood, I willingly put my own heart in a vice and watched it get crushed. I put myself out there. Every time. Because my end goal is a lifelong partnership, and every relationship is a try-out to cast the star player that will run alongside you on your team of two.
My biggest issue is I can do everything else in life, but this one THING. I’ve had patience for so long. I’ve dated, and dated and dated – and I’m exhausted. I’ve tweaked my online profile, listened to dating advice, dated outside of my comfort zone, even ignored my instincts and I still can’t find anyone. I am just tired of always struggling to “learn lessons.”
I understand that Jesus puts us on this Earth to experience lessons but why are some of us trusted to learn so much? I try to never compare myself to my friends, but I’d love to not have to work for something for a change. Can someone please explain his intent? I’m sick of the bar scene. I am sick of discovering more about myself. I am self-sufficient. If anything, I know how to appreciate life so much more and be present in life. I just wonder why the next phase of my life isn’t happening.
Also – if you can’t get around to answering my question – please pray for Erik, my brother who departed last September 27, 2014… my mom and dad who are going to have the worst day of their lives. I lost my brother, but they lost their son. God bless!
