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I really don’t know how to say this, but I’m not free to speak in my home country, so I really hope you’ll understand and pray for me. I DESPERATELY need your prayers, since the Church and fellow believers here are not free to say certain things and thus I’ve felt really ostracized, alone and “homeless” recently (despite having a family house to live in).
I was born in a Muslim country 30 years ago; my family comes from a racial & religious minority, so we’re not Muslims but we used to be very worldly. I was received into the Church 4 years ago. Since the age of 13, I’ve spent most of my time abroad; I graduated from university in the USA and have worked in China for about 3 years. Last year I applied to a certain graduate school in the USA and was accepted, so I had to go back to my home country to apply for a visa. I don’t know why exactly, but I’ve been battling really desperate thoughts upon my return home, and also very very debilitating insomnia, which I’ve never struggled with before. The conditions in my home country are very “dire” and I have no one to talk to. For example:
SO VERY SCARED for my life and future.
PLEASE PRAY FOR ME!
Marie Therese
I was born in a Muslim country 30 years ago; my family comes from a racial & religious minority, so we’re not Muslims but we used to be very worldly. I was received into the Church 4 years ago. Since the age of 13, I’ve spent most of my time abroad; I graduated from university in the USA and have worked in China for about 3 years. Last year I applied to a certain graduate school in the USA and was accepted, so I had to go back to my home country to apply for a visa. I don’t know why exactly, but I’ve been battling really desperate thoughts upon my return home, and also very very debilitating insomnia, which I’ve never struggled with before. The conditions in my home country are very “dire” and I have no one to talk to. For example:
- My home country has recently enacted Sharia law in some places. In other places, the govt is very weak compared to the extremist groups. I cannot talk to any psychologist/psychiatrist/priest or even fellow Christians due to the atmosphere of fear. I feel like I’m being buried alive. My country also has a rather low opinion of women.
- Doctors here are IMMUNE from prosecution, even in severe malpractice cases. Patients who complain can be jailed. My symptoms (insomnia, desperate thoughts) are seen as the result of “too much education” and the doctors here often administer powerful tranquilizers (drugs from the 60’s; they don’t have the newer drugs) in very high doses. I feel that I’ve suddenly entered some horror movie.
- The former governor of our capital city was recently sentenced to 2 years of jail for “blasphemy”, although he was merely careless while telling a joke and has apologized.
- My home country has a lot of m_s with very loud loudspeakers, but if anyone dares complain, lots of buildings belonging to the minority religions will get burned. This happened before. Now every time I hear their prayer call I feel this strange wave of anger and I can’t sleep, but I can’t talk about it to anyone! Everyone is too afraid to talk to me.
- As a girl from a racial minority, I cannot go outside unchaperoned. There is no public transportation system and crime rate is high. The police here have very low salaries and cannot be counted on to protect anyone.
SO VERY SCARED for my life and future.
PLEASE PRAY FOR ME!
Marie Therese
