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I live in public assisted housing. Nearby is a cafe with WIFI where I type to all you nice folk.
One day, a man approached me, after pacing in front of me several times, asking me inappropriate questions without initially introducing himself. First one was “Do you live in that building?’ which led to “Is your bed comfortable?” I cannot type his tone, which was creepy.
He then introduced himself, saying he was up for the job of house manager, which means he’d have a key to my room. A fellow house mate thought the guy to be creepy as well. House mate said he told property management and wanted to get signatures to block his employment. The next day, I told property management.
She was angry at something, someone, the moment she came into the office. Receptionist noticed. As I gave her the basics of the issue in front of the receptionist, I could see her mashing her jaw, as if to keep form becoming angrier. She then abruptly said, “Excuse me,” and bolted for her office, closing the door firmly, though I could hear she was talking as if on the phone. As she did not excuse me, I stayed for further conversation on the matter. The receptionist gave a look of “what the…?!” Manager was then told of other similar incidents. Like him crossing the street as I did and back again. I added, “A strong intuition shouldn’t be ignored,” then she interrupted me angrily but with some composure, “Are you telling me how to do my job?” “No, not at all,” and so I finished the thought. " I was referring to me; ***I ***didn’t think ***I ***should ignore my intuition that something is amiss with this guy.” By this time, I was upset, I have anxiety anyway, and didn’t say, “and so I thought you should know for your protection, as well.” I just wanted to get outta there. This woman got a roof over my head. All she said, angrily, was, “I will take care of this.” When I went to pay my rent, I didn’t want to see her, and made that known to the receptionist. She signaled that everything was okay. The manager seemed in a better mood, having said hello in a friendly way. Almost as if nothing happened.
Didn’t see the guy since. Til just about an hour ago in the cafe. Got right into my face and said in a snied way, “Gee, thanks for calling the office on me.”
So the office had to have told him who complained. I don’t know my recourses. The city police have a bad reputation for not doing their job, never mind well. I already know that he can come into this cafe any time he wants; it is a public space. Only with a restraining order can he not be allowed in here…
Yeah, I am not nervous at all. My hands are still shaking, it took me a while to type this, I already feel like jumping outta my skin all the time, and how much more does He think I can handle?! I have done my best to do well by Him. It is hardly perfect, but I too often feel like I am not welcomed in this life as it is. Yet He is obviously not done with me, but life has already been too much for me. I am not angry so much as dear God! Enough already! Can I not just rest in You with a simpler less fearful life?! Please?! It will be shortened otherwise and You are telling me I am not done yet! I cannot live both ways.
Suggestions and prayers, not in that order, would be appreciated.
thank you for reading a lengthy post.
One day, a man approached me, after pacing in front of me several times, asking me inappropriate questions without initially introducing himself. First one was “Do you live in that building?’ which led to “Is your bed comfortable?” I cannot type his tone, which was creepy.
He then introduced himself, saying he was up for the job of house manager, which means he’d have a key to my room. A fellow house mate thought the guy to be creepy as well. House mate said he told property management and wanted to get signatures to block his employment. The next day, I told property management.
She was angry at something, someone, the moment she came into the office. Receptionist noticed. As I gave her the basics of the issue in front of the receptionist, I could see her mashing her jaw, as if to keep form becoming angrier. She then abruptly said, “Excuse me,” and bolted for her office, closing the door firmly, though I could hear she was talking as if on the phone. As she did not excuse me, I stayed for further conversation on the matter. The receptionist gave a look of “what the…?!” Manager was then told of other similar incidents. Like him crossing the street as I did and back again. I added, “A strong intuition shouldn’t be ignored,” then she interrupted me angrily but with some composure, “Are you telling me how to do my job?” “No, not at all,” and so I finished the thought. " I was referring to me; ***I ***didn’t think ***I ***should ignore my intuition that something is amiss with this guy.” By this time, I was upset, I have anxiety anyway, and didn’t say, “and so I thought you should know for your protection, as well.” I just wanted to get outta there. This woman got a roof over my head. All she said, angrily, was, “I will take care of this.” When I went to pay my rent, I didn’t want to see her, and made that known to the receptionist. She signaled that everything was okay. The manager seemed in a better mood, having said hello in a friendly way. Almost as if nothing happened.
Didn’t see the guy since. Til just about an hour ago in the cafe. Got right into my face and said in a snied way, “Gee, thanks for calling the office on me.”
So the office had to have told him who complained. I don’t know my recourses. The city police have a bad reputation for not doing their job, never mind well. I already know that he can come into this cafe any time he wants; it is a public space. Only with a restraining order can he not be allowed in here…
Yeah, I am not nervous at all. My hands are still shaking, it took me a while to type this, I already feel like jumping outta my skin all the time, and how much more does He think I can handle?! I have done my best to do well by Him. It is hardly perfect, but I too often feel like I am not welcomed in this life as it is. Yet He is obviously not done with me, but life has already been too much for me. I am not angry so much as dear God! Enough already! Can I not just rest in You with a simpler less fearful life?! Please?! It will be shortened otherwise and You are telling me I am not done yet! I cannot live both ways.
Suggestions and prayers, not in that order, would be appreciated.
thank you for reading a lengthy post.
I will pray that you are protected from harm until you do.
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