In our homily last week our priest told us not to forget “good is stronger than evil”. I think this is important to remember. God is in total control and never gives us anything we can’t handle. Like in the “Footprints” poem, Jesus is there with you always, even at work. Remember that.
Also try to think positive. When you are tempted always remember the devil doesn’t offer anything except lies and empty promises. If you think things are tough now, they would only be harder if you gave into temptations. This is why at the same time Jesus asks us to pick up our cross, He also tells us that His yoke is easy and His burden light.
Try not to think of the people you work with as devils. I once heard Father Korapi on EWTN saying that unbaptized people(maybe those deep in mortal sin as well, I can’t remember) are spiritually dead. They are like people stumbling around in the dark. Have compassion for them and take every opportunity to shine the light of Christ into their darkness. They may not come around right then and there, but your example could be a source of help to them years down the road, perhaps even at their death bed.
I always try to remember that it is only through the grace of God that I was raised Catholic and this certainly hightens my responsibilty to be a good example to others. Not to go around solemnly, but instead with joy because of how God has blessed me.
I am not trying to minimize what your going through, it sounds tough. I just find the more I remind myself that what God has given me is good and what the world has to offer isn’t, the happier I am. The perfect example is all these Hollywood people. They have everything the world has to offer, they don’t seem to have any morals and their lives are train wrecks. I’m sure it is the same way with many of the people you work with, but they aren’t in the tabloids, so it is less obvious.
P.S. At the same time don’t be afraid to pray that another oppurtunity will come your way. Like blessedtoo’s story, it is amazing how often God takes care of things when we ask Him to. I say a novena to St. Rita and through her intercession God has anwsered many of my prayers. I will pray for you too.