Tempted to Lust but Woke up and resisted

[Penance]

Hello brothers and sisters.

I’m new to this page. I’m a struggling in the Catholic faith. I’ve been addicted to pornography and masturbation since 12 yrs old. I made a decision last year to quit this addiction after I learned that these are mortal sins. I wanted to align myself to the Lord.

Throughout last year I’ve been struggling and failing again and again and again. I’ve shed tears out of frustration and hating myself for this. It seems that the Lord may be tired of hearing my confessions at this particular area and still fail.

Last week I went to confession and really tried hard this week not to fall. Again I was tempted to look at nude anime characters. I did it without having sufficient reflection and when I saw the nude images I suddenly realized that I was about to sin again and before I had give in into lust, I resisted and closed the site. Its a mod program for a video game. Is it still considered a mortal sin knowing that i never resumed and went into lust and resisted or is it already a mortal sin due to the intention itself of opening the site. I’m really really worried right now because I received communion in the mass a while ago.

This is really frustrating because if it is considered a mortal sin, I will also be committing sacrilege. Right now, it really gives me this anxiety. I could really use some help right now.

 

[humbleseeker]

Its a mod program for a video game

If you know what triggers your temptations why not give up the game(s)all together? You are not alone in your struggle with that particular sin, but part of the maturation process is figuring out what one can and cannot handle. Being a man requires discipline, with the ability to tell oneself no and mean it.

 

[Penance]

Thank you for that brother. I could really use that to discipline myself. Its really the one area I lack. The game doesnt depict sexual content. Only its mods I’ve searched down the internet.