The fact is I’m looking for information on dreams.?
Ruling out an organic cause of the kind of thing you’re describing has been suggested as a first step because what you are describing is far out of the norm and not in the typical range of spiritual experiences. Besides, the kinds of organic things that can cause what you are describing are sometimes the kinds of things far better caught sooner than later. It isn’t hard to imagine you could have a life-threatening condition. Since the experiences are so extreme that they are realistically going to wear on your health in a serious way, I would definitely consult with a physician.
I certainly second the notions that this is not something to approach alone or by the use of the counsel of amateurs with no experience like yours. That’s about the amount of information you’re going to get here: that is, friend you are not going through something that belongs to a typical spiritual or emotional life, not by a longshot. We have nothing for you. Get professional help.
Very common answer today but I have a spirtual director and my visions are from heaven and evil on earth.
Just so you know many people receive what I do when doing mediations or in contemplative prayer.
No, they don’t. Getting visions that are realisitically going to ruin your health is not something many people get. No, that is not common. Getting spiritual direction alone would have been reasonable in the 15th century when they had no neurologists or psychiatrists, because back then the physicians had no help if your problem was physical, anyway. If you had a physical problem, it was going to run its course, for good or for ill, and that is what you got. That is not the case now.
If a person seems to be possessed by a demon in the 21st century, the first line of treatment is to rule out a physical cause,
because doctors can do that now. Treatable physical conditions can mimic spiritual possessions. Similarly, the first line of treatment for a spiritual experiences like yours, of which you say “to be honest I’m exhausted from them both I don’t get any rest” is to investigate whether or not there is a physical cause before you are so worn out that your health is ruined and your emotional stability becomes vulnerable. Again: this could also have an organic cause that needs treatment
soon.
Remember, there is no reason this experience cannot be both spriritual and physical. We’re not saying that there is nothing really spiritual about your experiences. We’re saying that you have described a physical problem, as well, one serious enough a typical person would not self-treat or self-diagnose.