I am pretty much in SavedByFaith’s boat, so will finally (gulp—my first forum question ever) jump into the CA waters after many lurkful (lurkish? lurquatious??) months, and respectfully tag along with one more question, if that’s OK. I’ve seen it very nearly answered for me in many Catholic resources, including other CA threads, so here goes: HOW do I draw the line? I am terrified to NOT firmly focus each time I pray, AS I pray, on the fact that I am asking for Mary’s intervention rather than going to her as a deity or sub-deity. I don’t want to be scrupulous; I realize that it’s the intention of the prayer that counts. But while I don’t want to get hung up on semantics, it’s the very verbal “shorthand” of going directly to saints expediently for help that makes me fear the slippery slope of deification on my part—“Our Lady please protect me…Saint So & So please help me with…”. I do fully understand (finally!!) that it is NOT the Catholic intention to bypass Jesus; that it is a sin to worship any saint. It’s just that the verbal shortcut seems so risky, but the “please pray for me/intervene for me/put in a good word for me” seems so clumsy every time, and it is not how most Catholic prayer to saints seems to me to be phrased. (And I’m not talking specifically about the words of the Rosary here; they are clear to me, and I have started learning it.) I know Mary herself wants this done right, with everything pointing to Her Son; it’s just that words are so powerful to me, and I want to be able to pray this new way comfortably and in total peace. Does any of this make sense?
Humor my babbling here; I swear I won’t do it again! My hands are shaking as I type this. I am at a crucial point, after a lifetime of curiosity, long study, and now finally having some lights turned on and stereotypes dispelled, of fully accepting RCC beliefs—including a sense of having Mary extremely close and ready to help me. I can practically touch Her, I want to give Her proper honor, and I would treasure Her love and most powerful prayers; I also want to learn about other saints and grow in faith through them. Everything Catholic now makes perfect, glorious sense to me—I think it really always did; so many pieces falling into place both spiritually and intellectually. But I can’t move on until I get some firm sense of how the “saint limits” are set in one’s mind on a regular prayer basis. I have prayed to God (and Mary!) for help on this, so maybe your answers will help fulfill that prayer? Like SavedByFaith, I don’t know where this long journey will end. I’m pretty lifetime-entrenched and active with my family in our protestant congregation and would have to take a conversion process s-l-o-w and easy. Nonetheless, I now know what’s missing, and CA has been an amazing source of information and hope to me as I seek; I feel like all my studies are coming alive and I’m speaking with old friends here. I just want to get started with a rosary and keep learning and praying. Thanks for listening, guys. Please forgive and correct any errors or misinformation on my part. I’m shutting up now.