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Miraluna
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It seems that the closer I am to Jesus the easier life becomes. I realize that what matters is Him and the rest is ephemeral. So I just carry my cross in faith. And I put my life in His hands, willing to listen and do what He wills me to do. Although, this is a complete surrender, I actually feel more in control of my life than ever…because I have Him in control of it. I seem to have such joy and peace – even under the same circumstances that in the past would have caused me anxiety and preoccupation. So when it is said that to be very close to Christ one must suffer much. Or I have heard it said that to if you want to be close to the cross then you need to be willing to take a splinter. I do not see this part in my journey. I guess, I do suffer more, in that I am more aware of things around me. People will do or say things and I worry about them and the offense they do to God and others and this saddens me. I am becoming involved in ministries that come with heartache . And I guess there is also some initial suffering as I cleanse (allow God to cleanse) the secular and selfish crevices of my heart. But other than that I do not see the greater suffering…am I just not at the point of closeness?