Please do not advise us on the consistancy of our thoughts.
It reads like a port calling the kettle black.
A good Port (say a Sandeman Ruby Port) can call the kettle black

I am simply pointing out that to say that God is good, and that God does not interfere with our freedom cannot be reconciled with also assuming that God takes away our freedom of choice when we “die”. If God is good, then it makes no sense to say that God is “impatient”, and our freedom to choose is limited to this existence. If you say that this is not a consistent point of view, please show me where the inconsistency is. I do agree that this view is different from the “official” teaching, so I am calling the “official” teaching inconsistent.
But onward we go…
I was giving this thread some thought this morning, and it occurred to me that I had similar thoughts and still wrestle with similar thoughts from time to time.
I have the power of the decision available to me.
I CAN choose hell. It is a horrible thought and it scares me quite a bit.
I have often wished the decision could be taken from me as I have worried that I would make the wrong decision when the time came.
I suppose it would draw a measure of comfort if I could convince myself that the decision is notr really there and that it is all an illusion of control.
But that bit of comfort cannot be had at the expense of compromising what I know is truth.
The truth does hurt. And it is frightening.
Nevertheless, the choice is ours to make.
And there is much comfort to be had in the fact of Christ, his sacrifice, and the promises he has made.
Why would you be afraid? If you get a guided tour of heaven and hell, and you are free to choose which one you prefer, what is there to be afraid of? What
can be frightening is the lack of adequate information. Now that is a scary prospect. But, you believe that God is just, and justice does not allow to demand full responsibility when there is no full information.
An old joke is due:
The Microsoft software engineer dies. He is given the opportunity to choose where to go, to heaven or hell. So an angel leads him a beautiful, sunny beach, with a lot of beer, people playing volleyball and having fun with pretty girls. He exclaims: “Wow, heaven is great!”. The angel says: “Actually, this is hell”. The engineer gasps, and says: “I can hardly wait to see heaven”. The angel nods, and brings him to a place, where old people sit on benches, and they feed some old pigeons, and says: “This is heaven!”. The engineer looks at the angel, and says: “Well, I guess, I will choose hell”. “Ok”, says the angel, and the guy immediately finds himself is red-hot lava. “Hey”, he screams, “where is the beach? The beer? The pretty girls?” The angel winks: “Well, that was the demo version. This is the production release”.