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Here where I live in Florida we are encouraged by the Catholic radio station to “talk to God,” and also of course, to listen to God.
I have a little bit of a problem with this because all my life I talked to myself and others in my head, and have been suspected again and again of hearing voices. I do not. Just noise from agistation and anxiety and–also–side effects of certain psych meds. Also, for a long time, I had a problem with my hearing and was always afraid people were talking about me and heard what something sounded like instead of what was actually said.
Also, although I have finally found an avenue to join RCIA classes! I am not baptised and not formally a member of the Catholic Church, although a certain priest I e-mailed said that the Lord would give me the blessing of “baptism of desire” if I asked for it, so I have lived by this, but with great doubts and trepidations.
Here is my question. About a year and a half ago, Thanksgiving evening, I heard a voice (not a “voice”) saying “I want you to be my little one again.” And I was shown the image of Jesus on the Cross. Afterward, I sometimes thought this might be my father talking to me in my mind but I clung to this voice, seeking and following it, and I truly believe that, whether it was the voice of God or not it is intended by Him as the means of my coming to the Church.
I have matured greatly since that time, through much trauma, and especially with the unblievable help and love poured out here on this site.
And I have informed my parents of my “becoming Catholic” and feel ready to join RCIA locally, although I have had much trouble here, and am a little nervous about it but the woman from Project Rachel who extended this additional help, God Bless her, was positive and warm and kind.
The return phone call from her came today. Shortly afterward, I learned of some serious trouble that my son is in.
I am concerned for him and have asked for prayers for him but somehow it all fits. I know that I became “addicted” to my son and that it is not good for him and I am praying that the counseling fro Project Rachel will help me to sort this out.
Oh how I have longed to be “churched” for 20 long years!
So, was that the voice of God speaking to me? Recently, I hear it differently, and spend much time praying vigilantly and almost unceasingly.
I have a little bit of a problem with this because all my life I talked to myself and others in my head, and have been suspected again and again of hearing voices. I do not. Just noise from agistation and anxiety and–also–side effects of certain psych meds. Also, for a long time, I had a problem with my hearing and was always afraid people were talking about me and heard what something sounded like instead of what was actually said.
Also, although I have finally found an avenue to join RCIA classes! I am not baptised and not formally a member of the Catholic Church, although a certain priest I e-mailed said that the Lord would give me the blessing of “baptism of desire” if I asked for it, so I have lived by this, but with great doubts and trepidations.
Here is my question. About a year and a half ago, Thanksgiving evening, I heard a voice (not a “voice”) saying “I want you to be my little one again.” And I was shown the image of Jesus on the Cross. Afterward, I sometimes thought this might be my father talking to me in my mind but I clung to this voice, seeking and following it, and I truly believe that, whether it was the voice of God or not it is intended by Him as the means of my coming to the Church.
I have matured greatly since that time, through much trauma, and especially with the unblievable help and love poured out here on this site.
And I have informed my parents of my “becoming Catholic” and feel ready to join RCIA locally, although I have had much trouble here, and am a little nervous about it but the woman from Project Rachel who extended this additional help, God Bless her, was positive and warm and kind.
The return phone call from her came today. Shortly afterward, I learned of some serious trouble that my son is in.
I am concerned for him and have asked for prayers for him but somehow it all fits. I know that I became “addicted” to my son and that it is not good for him and I am praying that the counseling fro Project Rachel will help me to sort this out.
Oh how I have longed to be “churched” for 20 long years!
So, was that the voice of God speaking to me? Recently, I hear it differently, and spend much time praying vigilantly and almost unceasingly.