The things which are the most testing compel me in the end to admit that I can’t do it .
I’m not the sort of person who likes to ask for help . I think I can do it all myself .
That’s not a good place to be in vis-à-vis God .
They force me to confess my utter need for God .
They’re that thorn in the flesh which I need to stop me from believing I’m my own saviour .
Jesus may have had such a situation in mind when he said , “Humanly speaking, it is impossible. But with God everything is possible.”
I confess the truth of St Paul’s words , “But thanks be to God, who gives us the victory through our Lord Jesus Christ.”
I gain no victory .
I am just clay in the hands of the Divine Potter .
It’s taken me a long , hard time to get here , but I’m still on the journey and hopefully getting there slowly .
Sorry if this seems a bit of a ramble , but it’s not easy to express the deep things of the spirit .