As far as my confusion, it’s sincere. By what you’ve said, can I gather then that you only believe in the things that the Church teaches which you understand, or which you like? I don’t mean this to sound harsh, but I very much do not understand that kind of “faith” at all. There’s no leap or real trust involved…It’s just, keeping the things that strike your fancy and throwing out the rest. The marriage analogy doesn’t really work because human beings are fallible and imperfect. We’re talking about God and the Church here.
**Are you telling me you completely totally accept everything handed down to you by the Church? There’s nothing you doubt or don’t agree with? They say it, you believe it, that’s it? I’m not asking you if you obey or disobey the teachings. I’m asking you agree with every single thing? Be honest. If you do, and you’re being honest, perhaps you have the calling to be a saint? I personally do not.
Believing that I have to believe everything the Church hands down to me implies I have no free will, that I have no brain to think with, that I am a dog that simply obeys without the capacity to reason or understand. That’s not what we are.
Yes, human beings are fallible and imperfect and that’s why I used the marriage analogy. God is indeed Perfect. However, the human element of the Church is NOT. They make mistakes, they fall into sin, and they misunderstand. Like it or not, the human element of the Church is just that: human. We cannot deny (I don’t deny) that the history of the Church is littered with mistakes and bad decisions and evil. If the Church has made mistakes and bad decisions, how can I believe EVERYTHING they hand to us, without any regard to the fact that they are human and are bound to err. God can do anything, and yes, he gave the leaders of the Church special graces, but that did NOT eliminate free will, or the fact that that those humans who received those graces will allow themselves to only be open to God’s influence. They’re only human. How are we assured that the humans who are supposed to receive God’s influence are only reacting to God’s influence and not their own personal beliefs? We can’t. Otherwise, we’d have to blame the personal mistakes of previous Popes on God. Which isn’t so.
We ALL only believe the things we understand, how can you believe something just because someone says to? IMOHO those are only words that one is speaking. You can’t put belief in you like running a liquid into a funnel into its recepticle. If it doesn’t sound right to you, it just doesn’t.
I trust the Church enough not to completely turn my back on Her when her human leaders have done horrible things and instead, I trust Her that much that I look to the good things, and of course, the cessation of doing the horrible things.**
You’re right that the things you mention (Eucharist, Our Lady, etc.) are wonderful doctrines and sacraments, and no I’m not suggesting that you reject them too. But how can you believe they are true if you don’t trust the Church which gave them to you? If the Church is wrong about the priesthood, then how do you know it’s right about the Eucharist and the Blessed Mother? That’s what I don’t understand…basically, what do you base your faith on if not on objective truth?
**Because I believe and understand the Eucharist, Trinity, Blessed Mother, etc. They have a place in my heart and mind. I have NO doubt about them whatsoever. I DO base my faith on the objective truth. And while the truth of the Eucharist, Trinity and Blessed Mother have a place in my heart and mind, other issues, (like the subject of this thread) just don’t make sense to me, they are not rational to me, and to me they fall under “this is a mistake. If I pray for them, maybe it can be fixed”. However, the fact that I accept the teachings of the Church in this matter, even though I don’t agree with it, indicates that I am being objective. If I wasn’t being objective, I wouldn’t accept it at all and would do as I please. Being objective means drawing your own conclusions with the evidence before you without persona bias. If I allowed myself to NOT be objective, I’d be acting rather than accepting and praying **