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I was not raised Catholic. Originally, I was an atheist, and I was raised in a home that either ignored God or followed him hypocritically, thus making me hate God and religion as a teenager. But, I then began studying philosophy and dedicated myself to removing as much personal bias as I could, in order to perceive the truth in its fullness. Of course, I did not and will never ever know the truth fully, but I did come to recognize the truth as the Catholic God. It was a long and arduous path, but I came to it through personal desire and very, very strenuous effort. I had built up sinful habits as an atheist, including while I pursued truth, and I tried as hard as I could to rationalize a way to continue doing them, even though I knew they were wrong. But my dedication to remove bias and pursue truth fully overtook me, and so I dedicated myself to God and holiness for Him.
This is, of course, not the exact way every convert comes to Christianity; everyone is different. But I’m sure that I experienced some of the same setbacks, joys, and desires as other converts, such as the passion for truth, the joy of finding it, and the stumbling block - and indeed, the torture - of sinful habits built up beforehand. But, as I said, the only reason I converted was because I wanted to. Eventually, my conversation came to a point: do I want to remain an atheist in my sin, or become a Catholic? In my study of philosophy, that was the point I came to: between absolute, agnostic doubt, and Catholicism. And I chose Catholicism, through personal effort and will. Yes, it was by the providence and grace of God. But God did not force it on me, or anyone else; I wanted it, as do all converts.
My point with this story is to ask a question: if the only way a person can be converted is their own desire, choice and effort, what is the point of evangelization and apologetics? After becoming Catholic, I performed some apologetics myself to atheists and Protestants, mostly online - and it was completely fruitless. I would use strong arguments, and sometimes they would even concede a point - only to reiterate it again later. As I talked to them, I knew that my rational arguments were useless. They knew they truth; their problem wasn’t ignorance. They just didn’t want to do it. They preferred sin, disobedience and the pseudo-freedom of rebelliousness from God. I see the point of apologetics to publish answers, to put the information out there for anyone who chooses to find it. And the “new evangelization” of Catholics making themselves more holy is wonderful. But I am questioning the apologetical evangelization by which one goes out to non-Catholics of any kind and attempts to use rational argument in the hope of converting them. To me, this seems impossible, with the only exception being if the person doesn’t know anything about Christianity beforehand. Because if they do know about it, they will have already formed an opinion beforehand, and have made their choice, so it is useless trying to force arguments on them.
I do not mean this to be a rant or harsh. I am just trying to work out this issue in myself, and thought this is the perfect place for reciprocal aid. Thank you all for your patience and assistance. God bless.
This is, of course, not the exact way every convert comes to Christianity; everyone is different. But I’m sure that I experienced some of the same setbacks, joys, and desires as other converts, such as the passion for truth, the joy of finding it, and the stumbling block - and indeed, the torture - of sinful habits built up beforehand. But, as I said, the only reason I converted was because I wanted to. Eventually, my conversation came to a point: do I want to remain an atheist in my sin, or become a Catholic? In my study of philosophy, that was the point I came to: between absolute, agnostic doubt, and Catholicism. And I chose Catholicism, through personal effort and will. Yes, it was by the providence and grace of God. But God did not force it on me, or anyone else; I wanted it, as do all converts.
My point with this story is to ask a question: if the only way a person can be converted is their own desire, choice and effort, what is the point of evangelization and apologetics? After becoming Catholic, I performed some apologetics myself to atheists and Protestants, mostly online - and it was completely fruitless. I would use strong arguments, and sometimes they would even concede a point - only to reiterate it again later. As I talked to them, I knew that my rational arguments were useless. They knew they truth; their problem wasn’t ignorance. They just didn’t want to do it. They preferred sin, disobedience and the pseudo-freedom of rebelliousness from God. I see the point of apologetics to publish answers, to put the information out there for anyone who chooses to find it. And the “new evangelization” of Catholics making themselves more holy is wonderful. But I am questioning the apologetical evangelization by which one goes out to non-Catholics of any kind and attempts to use rational argument in the hope of converting them. To me, this seems impossible, with the only exception being if the person doesn’t know anything about Christianity beforehand. Because if they do know about it, they will have already formed an opinion beforehand, and have made their choice, so it is useless trying to force arguments on them.
I do not mean this to be a rant or harsh. I am just trying to work out this issue in myself, and thought this is the perfect place for reciprocal aid. Thank you all for your patience and assistance. God bless.