From my point of view, the belief in an unprovable god and an unverifiable afterlife can have the opposite effect from what you feel it has. It seems to me that there is a lot at stake, to be gambled on the possibility that these notions are correct.
There is nothing to lose and everything to gain.
Happiness, as I understand it, is a journey rather than a destination.
A True fulfilling
objective happiness is an eternal state (not static) within a being that fulfills us emotionally, personally, and existentially. It is not just one or many fleeting moments of sensory pleasure. To acquire such a state of being, a person has to make a conscious decision to enter in to an eternal relationship with the objective good (God), in order to be united with that which completes them existentially. This requires them to serve the greatest good which is eternal love and all that which love
reveals . If one does not serve eternal love, they cannot be fulfilled in eternal Love. Love is an action, not just a feeling. As imperfect as i am, a true objective fulfillment of the human person is that which i seek, and it is what i believe to be in the nature that is God and the revelation of Jesus Christ.
The subjective version of happiness that you are speaking about is fleeting and imperfect, since it is reliant on imperfect people and an imperfect world. That you have settled for that which is merely tolerable, doesn’t tell me that you have a rational belief, but rather that you have given up on God for the sake of something else in the world; something that doesn’t objectively fulfill us, but perhaps gives service to the subjective fulfillment of our God complex (
our desire to be God). The root of all war and strife lies in our desire to be Gods, and it just so happens that some of the human Gods realize, given their natural ability to reason, that it would be more practical if they worked together. People have deceived themselves into thinking that there is some kind of fulfillment in a naturalist worldview, thus they ignore their natural inclination to serve the greatest
ontological good for the subjective inventions of their imaginations; something that is ultimately imperfect. The problem is we cannot be God and we are all going to die, and this is why atheism is irrational; quite simply because the belief itself does not fulfill our objective nature.
There is only two reasons that one would be an atheist. They have been brainwashed in to believing that naturalism is the only logically consistent system of thought and thus it is impossible to believe in God because Gods existence is logically impossible (strong Atheism), or they want to define their own existence free of any eternal objective law or plan for their lives, accept those enforced by human society, and the only way they can do that is to deny Gods existence and thus all the objective value that is in the world. For some reason you think this is a rational decision. But I don’t see it, sorry.
I don’t expect to be blissful at every turn. Nor do I expect that at some point I’m going to sit back and say, “I have achieved happiness, now I can stop”. Happiness is born of action, not passivity. I’m not certain what you understand by fulfilment, but I doubt it comes from resting on your haunches and letting happiness just wash over you.
Perhaps this is not my definition of happiness? Perhaps you should stick to my objective definition, rather then that self glorious fantasy you keep telling your self to help you wake up in the morning. That is just a thought.
If, however, at the end of my life, I can look back and say that I worked towards happiness for myself and others in the best way I knew, that by being alive I made a positive difference, however small, to the world, then I can’t honestly say that I need anything more than that.
You have done nothing but glorify your self, but it is meaningless, and you have offered life nothing but a fantasy. In the end, everything we say and do amounts to nothing, and our so called search for happiness and glory will amount to nothing. There is nothing rational about atheism, since it robs us of that which fulfills our humanity objectively; it ultimately robs us of a true objective and existentially fulfilling happiness. Thus a rational person whom has desires and knows that there is no definitive evidence against Gods existence, will refuse atheism in order to preserve the objective value of their humanity. Belief in God represents the pinnacle of humanities desire for the greatest good. But in order for us to have the greatest good we must sacrifice our self serving attitudes and learn to live for the greater good of others for this is the nature that is love. Some of us, while we find that there are some goods that we are happy to serve, realize that there are many sacrifices that does not fit well with our self serving attitude, and so some of us make a conscious decision to become atheists, denying the objective value of God.