About 5 years ago, i was enrolled in the Brown Scapular of Mt. Carmel. Then, roughly 3 years later, I came to a realization that I was not upholding all of the “requirements,” and proceeded to discontinue wearing it. I believed that since I was not upholding my end of the bargain, so to speak, I was and am not worthy to wear it. I still struggle with that same sin, so I still could not very well wear it. What should I do? Was it a sin to start in the first place if I did not know that this specific sin was a violation of the requirements? Was it a sin to ever discontinue wearing it? What should I do?
Thanks!
*I am a member. I can only speak for myself, but I would encourage you to start wearing it again. I would encourage you to pray, read “the true devotion to the Blessed Virgin” by St. Louis Marie De Montfort, and start praying the rosary and doing the preparation in the book. I know that it really helps me. I like to read a little bit everyday before I pray my Rosary.
Our Mother looks at the heart and knows our struggles. Don’t give up trying just because you feel guilty. Just remember the only one who wins if you give up is the enemy. Trust Mother Mary and our Lord Jesus to help you live up to the promises.
To be honest with you, I am human too. Mother Mary knows we are human and that we sometimes fail to do the things we should do because we become lazy or because we get discouraged and just give up. Mother Mary loves us and I believe she will help us overcome the struggles and feelings we have. I like to tell people be patient with me as God isn’t finished with me yet, lol. We all have certain areas in our lives that we struggle with.
For some people it is hard for them to pray the rosary everyday, for some it is going to mass every Sunday because they have a priest who makes them feel like he can’t be bothered and if they need a priest he wouldn’t be there for them. That is the problem I have. I am a member of two Catholic Churches because the priest at the church closer to me, can’t be bothered and the priest that I do like because I think he really cares about the Catholic people in his church is not the closest church to me.
For me it is easy to pray my rosary everyday, but it is hard to get excited about going to mass because the priest there makes one feel like he can’t be bothered and doesn’t really care about the people in the parish who are hurting, who need a spiritual advisor, or makes it easy for people to have a good confession because he wants to push them out the door and every Saturday there are people who have to leave not being able to go to confession. I know I have a bad feeling everytime I go into the church and so I am trying to go to another church that is further away, because I actually feel like Christ’s love is in the priest there.
The only thing we can do is to keep on trying and keep on praying that God will help us overcome the areas in our lives that we are weak or struggling with. The only thing we can do is to pick ourselves up, and keep praying to Mary and Jesus to help us with the areas in our lives that need changing.
I hope you will pick yourself up and know that Mary looks at the heart.
God Bless and love in Christ
Chrisy*