I understand how you feel, I suffer from the same thing and I’ve been trying to get a handle on all of these Rites. Today we had our Rite of Election and Rite of Continued Conversion, but since everyone there was involved, it wasn’t too bad. I too am a little nervous about the scrutinies, but my sponsor told me as a Candidate, I would only be involved in one of them.
They are basically prayer to help strengthen you against anything that may try to deter you from joining the Church at Easter Vigil.
Frankly, I’m looking forward to that, I need all the prayer I can get at this point, it seems like everything that can happen is happening to get me discouraged or confused or give me a case of cold feet. I’m just trying to keep my head low and plough through!
I will be soooo happy after Easter Vigil is done!
Hang in there, I will pray for you also!