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I have been troubled deeply by the idea of the unpardonable sin. I had been convinced that I had committed it. I want to start fresh but sometimes it’s consuming and Im afraid I have tested God too much.
I was raised Catholic, I stopped practcing - a slow loss of faith - when I was in college. I even reached a point where I made an awful joke about the virgin mary and her not actually being a virgin- even calling her something awful. I cringe thinking about it but in retrospect I denied her perfect virginity and I made a mockery of her, I remember regretting it but didnt put too much weight on it because I wasn’t practicing my faith at that time. I certainly didn’t think it through nor did I say it with convinction but I made a disgusting joke about something that is so precious and sacred/
It wasn’t until years later I read on the unpadonable sin and thought I may have committed it. I have never felt close to God or that I deserved to go to heaven even when i was younger. I would like to and want to but fear it may be too late or even that I may never have been good enough for God’s love.
Does anyone have advice? I have seen a priest on this matter and I have prayed for forgiveness but I feel there is so much in the bible that says that is not enough
Please help, I have been sick over this matter and it haunts me daily.
I was raised Catholic, I stopped practcing - a slow loss of faith - when I was in college. I even reached a point where I made an awful joke about the virgin mary and her not actually being a virgin- even calling her something awful. I cringe thinking about it but in retrospect I denied her perfect virginity and I made a mockery of her, I remember regretting it but didnt put too much weight on it because I wasn’t practicing my faith at that time. I certainly didn’t think it through nor did I say it with convinction but I made a disgusting joke about something that is so precious and sacred/
It wasn’t until years later I read on the unpadonable sin and thought I may have committed it. I have never felt close to God or that I deserved to go to heaven even when i was younger. I would like to and want to but fear it may be too late or even that I may never have been good enough for God’s love.
Does anyone have advice? I have seen a priest on this matter and I have prayed for forgiveness but I feel there is so much in the bible that says that is not enough
Please help, I have been sick over this matter and it haunts me daily.