One of the expressions [St Silouan the Athonite] frequently used was “we must go down before we go up.” That is, we cannot expect to ascend to the heights of glory with Christ unless we are willing first to adopt His voluntary humility. What Christ did, He did sinlessly out of pure love for mankind. In our case, our willingness to humble ourselves is the only appropriate stance before God in view of our sin.
In this vein, he emphasized the life-giving potential of the word given by Christ to St. Silouan: “Keep your mind in hell and despair not.” This paradoxical formulation at once teaches us to live with the awareness of the damnable nature of our sin and to hold fast to the saving power of Christ. A person who “keeps his mind in hell” is ever aware that only one fate is appropriate for his deeds, eternal damnation. This consideration sears humility into his soul, as he finds himself utterly unable to lift his eyes toward the face of God. Yet this very movement of “going down” is motivated by grace, and that same grace enables one to fend off temptations to despondency. One’s wretchedness before God is excruciatingly and unremittingly apparent, and yet in that very moment joy is born into the soul as the supreme love of God is revealed as the vanquisher of sin, rescuing him from the abyss of despair.
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