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Maranatha
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I do not want annihilation. I want to experience joy forever. If I wanted annihilation then you’d be correct. The desire to live this life forever seems a little perverted to me.If you want to die, you need to seek psychological help. I am not being insulting, and not I’m trying to be funny. If you truly want to die, and the only reason you haven’t is to avoid torqueing off god, my friend I am terribly sorry for you.
Catholics put a high value to life, yet you say you want to die. You claim life is gift? If it is, you squander it by wanting it to end. If you want it to end, you must not be satisfied with it.
I do live in guilt because I know I can’t love God the way He deserves - with perfection.In all seriousness, this is saddening to read. A few posts ago someone told me their heart was full of joy, and they had god to thank for it. Then I read this. And it reminds me of how terrible I felt when I was a Catholic. The guilt, the shame, the fear. I live with none of it now, because I am better than it. I have accepted that we are all we have. I don’t need threats of hellfire to keep me in line, and don’t need the “love” of tyrant to to make me feel worthy. I love myself for who I am, and revel in the strength of life.
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I do fear God because of his just punishments.
I am filled with joy because no mater how bad I am, He will always accept my initiatives at reconciliation.