This is kind of a moral theology question-but different audience

[foolishmortal]

What do you think of Scrupulous, or is it “Scrupulosity”, Anonymous? While it’s said that the scrupulous can commit a mortal sin, consent can often be too weak. It’s said that you have to want to hurt God and break off your relationship with Him. Their archives have the more literal quotes I’m citing. I could really use an answer based on what I understood was said for this Sunday.
I do think I have insecurities and sleep deprivation, but I could be making excuses. All I do know is priests say I have scrupulosity, probably because, as I believe SA had it, in not being understood and to not leave things out, I want to explain everything. It could be, as SA had it, it could be deep down, a desire for a counseling session at a bad time. I can be compulsive on the net and on forums and anything else that looks interesting and I want to enjoy until a good climax (not the sexual term, though that’s happened as well on my own–sorry if I sound like I’m being cheeky in referring to masturbation this way)
Maybe I use scrupulosity to hide laxity or to act out on anger with an ego defense. I love Fr. Heribert Jone’s book and I wish I had it with me here in S. Korea but, to buy it, I probably have to use paypal and my Visa card, which uses Chase Bank (Paypal and Chase funding abortion according to the last Life Decisions International boycott list (which I did bring).

What do you think about them at SA?
What about Fr Cass Kucharek’s “To Settle Your Conscience”?

Thanks for listening to my problems. I’m not much of a journal writer and I might use forums to organize my thoughts. I d seek answers or have sincere thoughts to add, respective to each individual post, though.

 

[TMGallyon85]

Believe me Scrupulosity exists. I tend to be scrupulous. It’s basically the spirtual form of anxiety. Scrupulous people will sometimes doubt being forgiven after confession, wonder if minor venial sins are mortal, or is a small piece of the Eucharist stuck to the teeth is a horrible offense. It has been suggested In different accounts that Luther was a scruplulous man and hated going to confession. Though I do think the Liberals tend to scoff serious issues off as scrupulous, there are indeed Legitamate scruples that even Traditionalists will admite exist.

 

[ProVobis]

One must always remember that no one except Christ and Mary is perfect. Scrupulous or not, we do sin and that’s why we have the Catholic Church to guide us into the right direction. Priests have heard it all in confession so I’m sure it won’t shock him if you confess every small particle of communion that accidently touch your teeth or having one or two distracting thoughts on your way to receiving communion.

 

[foolishmortal]

Can you ever just morally collapse due to scrupulosity? Can it mix with sleep deprivation, an inferiority complex, a bit of other compulsions like net addiction (and corresponding Pavlovian push-button pleasure net addiction or object-misplacement arguing on forums brought on possibly by feeling a loss of control at work and a corresponding need of feeling of control over something or else feelings of worthlessness in most other areas of life)? Could scrupulosity be passive-aggressive rebellion against God by overcompensating as well as failing? Could it be a difficulty feeling loved or enjoying safe forms of intimacy that could make you Is the truth of culpability in solitary mortal sin? Is my desire to be informed an insecurity complex? I’m a pathological or just handing myself a big plate of in-denial bull, when I probably do have appropriate guilt? That is the question. I don’t feel I’m above God’s love, grace or forgiveness or whatever one might say the scrupulous feel above. I blame myself for being negligent and an idiot on my part.

These problems seem to have started big time when I started my first class with students I couldn’t control. It seems venial sins of lack of humility led to net addiction (I only got it so I could videophone my parents and I had anxiety then, when I was not having luck, thus ruining Advent until I got the net Christmas Eve), more anger on forums (continued a month after trying to find a job and driving like a madman), and some bouts with lust. Man, if this is Pride, and it probably is, this ego trip is a bummer.

SA did say that you can subconciously start exonerating yourself after berating yourself in the same confession session. My explanatory confessions, I have trouble not doing, has priests telling me I am scrupulous and one said anxious. Could I then be unable to make full consent even if it feels I made a conscious choice to give into impulses to check on the same thing after going overboard the first and even second time? Is a Puritanical purge of material a sign of non-reflective impulsive panic from going to far with a particular grave matter, despite still having difficulty following a link to a response to my post knowing I might get angry and waste time?
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Maybe this is all an ego defense–seeing if I really did commit mortal sin. I focus on lust, but I have been remoreseful for anger. Whether my culpability was reduced to non- full consent or insufficient reflection, I am not sure, but I will try to get confession. Can I get absolved, however, if I still have these late-night net sessions? Does confession require full-consent and sufficient reflection? I guess, though, if I couldn’t do that right, I probably didn’t mortally sin.

Do you think mortal sin for the scrupulous, anyway, is closer to "If you do not want to offend God, it’s not mortal, or closer to “It’s grave matter, you were aware of that and did it it and thus, mortal”? I try to fight it, but I feel more anxious that I’m really wanting to be lax and am tired of fighting the good fight.

Thanks for your concern in writing thoughtful answers already!

Maybe you just need a confessor to answer these things–question is, who is 100% orthodox? You want to be understood so some traditionalists might not be best because you might get catechetical answers, but you don’t want one saying you can do inherently evil things to ease your stress either. I never know if I’ll move and I’m not sure I want to settle down with one, though I suppose they could write their pastoral (psychological, if like Fr. Groeschel) prognosis and what not for a future confessor.