I remember the devotion of your youth, how you loved me as a bride, how you followed me in the desert, in a land unsown. Jer. 2:2
This is the verse I keep coming back to. It was the reading at daily mass the day after I decided to say yes and at least explore religious life. I felt like God was speaking right to me.
I remembered how I used to pray to be a bride of Christ as a little girl. But, I grew up, went to college, followed many fads in spirituality because I was ignorant of the deep spirituality available in the Catholic Church. I fell in love a few times, but never married. As I was making my way back to the Church, listening to a lot of catechesis and apologetics, I began to think of religious life.
At first I thought God was crazy–or maybe I was crazy! Why did I keep having this thought. And, like another poster said, it became an almost daily thought. So, I figured I’d bargain with God.
Okay, I said, I’ll prove how wrong you are. I’ll look into it and then you’ll see!
You know, God tells us to come as little children. I try, but sometimes my little child is a real brat!

But, God is good, kind, merciful and gentle. I went to a “come and see” weekend. I came and saw how good it was.
I’ve visited several communities now. In the beginning it was to decide between apostolic/ contemplative. Some were brief visits and others more frequent and for longer periods. I thought I had made my decision. The community was very good and at times I felt great peace there, but for some reason when I thought of joining I did not feel at peace. I made an application anyway, but God intervened and I postponed the application process and decided to explore a few more communities.
I’m very excited about visiting the Dominican sisters in Farmington Hills, MI. I keep feeling like they may be “the ones” At least, I keep feeling like the whole process, after several years, is about to speed up and be quick.
Even though discerning has sometimes made me nuts–impatient, angry, frustrated–in the end it’s helped me trust more, to be more docile and humble, to know God’s love more and to love Him more, and the adventure continues…