I knew from the very first meeting with RCIA that I was where the Holy Spirit led me. As the months went on, that realization grew even stronger. The more I studied the faith and debated (although not nearly as much as I would have preferred) the stronger my convictions got.
I need to share this with you though. About 3 months BEFORE the Easter Vigil, an RCIA team member came to me, mostly because I was starting to have some difficulties (not with the truth which I was learning but with self doubt in my belief in God) that the Devil, because he was loosing his grip on my soul, that he would attack me more and more the closer Easter got, to plant many seeds of doubt within me,and he DID. The day before the Easter Vigil, I went to the RCIA director and said that I could not go through with it. I had so many conflicting doubts running around my head that I was confused. She was understanding and did not try to “make me” go through with receiving the Sacraments. All she said was, pray pray and Pray some more.
I spent all that night in anguished prayer talking with the Blessed Mother (we children always go to Mom when we are scared or hurt…

) She spoke to my heart, not in words that anyone else would hear, not even my ears, just to my heart. She let me know that she did not always understand what the total implications of the Cross was. That when she saw her Son being nailed to it, she just had to Trust that it would all make sense at a later time. I felt such a calm come over me, I realized that I did not need to have all the answers right away. God would show me in steps throughout my lifes journey the truths He teaches through Holy Mother Church.
Easter Vigil Mass, I was fully received into the One Holy Catholic Apostolic Church and I have never regretted it.
In the beginning of my faith journey, Mary led me to her Son Jesus Christ, and she keeps leading me to Him. I thank God everyday that He sent His Holy Mother to guide me on my journey.
