So lately I have been feeling a sort of hazy and miserable state.Im in high school at a great(academically) but horrible(spiritually) and I feel a sort of desperate want of companionship.Im male and I really want fellowship but my fellow parishioners that are my age at least most aren’t very invested into Catholicism as I was.While i still go to mass and confession I have lost a great degree of virtue in terms of being able to love without wanting love back.I was able to do this but as school and a sort of loneliness that has set in has made me feel restraining in my love given to others and every day I’m reminded by my loneliness.I have heard that I should love and move outside of myself but it feels to difficult and trying to do so leaves a sort of ache in my heart seeing my parents not wanting to go to mass with me or the fact that 98% of my friends with the exception of a few aquainteces I don’t have any religious friends and the only one like me is my brother who isn’t very keen at being a friend more as a supporting brother.I feel so lost and in prayer I find God silent and not listening and it drives me to fear because I feel like I’m flying blind without really knowing how to steer the plane or even where to go.I am asking for prayers and some advice on what to do.Tomorrow I’m going to see my priest for spiritual direction but more voices on the matter wouldn’t hurt.
It’s can be tough when you feel like you’re at this alone for sure.
But I’ve gotta admire the strong spirit that’s led you on this far already.
If you could fix any one thing first? What would it be? I mean you’ve got sort of a litany in play here.
I mean for sure prayers I can give? But I’m a pretty hands-on guy too. So I can hang out with you a bit on this path if you wanna? And of course if you want to talk about anything specific you can just shoot me a PM.
Peace CB. I hope you find some comfort here. I know you came looking for some for sure
Feeling lonely is almost universal in teenagers. I know it does not LOOK that way from your point of view, but, even the fellow student who is the most popular likely battles loneliness. It is part of becoming independent, growing up, becoming an adult, sort of like taking the training wheels off of your bike.
When we recognize that loneliness is part of the human condition, it can seem a bit more manageable.
My next advice, are you involved with your parish youth group and the Diocese Catholic Youth Ministry? If not, that is where you are going to find other teens who also like going to Mass. Calling, emailing, facebooking your Diocese Office of Youth Ministry is a great place to start.
Online, The Newman Connection is geared at college students, however, they have a FREE online YouCat study that might help you out. Exploring YouCat - Newman Connection
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