To have more faith that God exists

[Rozellelily]

Sometimes I believe in God but other times I have zero faith and genuinely believe that God,Jesus etc is not real and that people just think it’s real due their “sense perception”.
Putting it bluntly,I have Depression but I’m not even sure that it’s just Depression as some doctors have thought I might have Young Onset Dementia.
Ever since this has happened my brain has deteriorated and God doesn’t seem real.
Not because I’m mad at my circumstances etc,but rather that the brain cell loss changes have literally made it that I can no longer sense Holy Spirit,peace,anything at all when praying and it’s getting worse and worse.I can’t even understand about concepts about Jesus or God anymore.

Due to this,I’ve come to the conclusion that God etc is only real because people’s brains can conceptualise this.No brain equals no God.
Everything (such as experience and perception etc) must be filtered through a brain with all functioning components (I hope this makes sense?).

I have tried to get help from many doctors and medicines etc and received no help and I tried to believe what some people have said:IE that God allows this suffering so that it would bring me closer to God.

I think that must be wrong though as this illness is making me further away from God.
Eg:I can’t now even understand the concept of sin etc anymore and I’m feeling that this God “stuff” is (unwittingly) made up so I don’t see how this illness is a vehicle to bring me closer to God when it’s doing the opposite?

Even concepts like “faith” I don’t understand anymore since my brain has become “dumb”.

It’s really hard to explain all this in a way that anyone can understand.

I would appreciate if anyone would be willing to pray for me?

 

[Tis_Bearself]

Come Holy Spirit and bring Rozellelily the gift of Faith, a greater understanding of God, peace of mind and freedom from anxiety.

Jesus, please send your healing and love to Rozellelily to overcome the mental condition that is causing an obstacle here.

Mary, Undoer of Knots and Help of Christians, please help to undo the knots in Rozellelily’s mind.
St. Joseph, who always helps those who seek a deeper relationship with Your foster son Jesus, please intercede here.
I ask all this in Jesus’ name. Thank you. Amen.

 

[Katie777]

Remember,
O most gracious Virgin Mary that never was it known that anyone who fled to your protection, Implored your help, or sought your intercession, was left unaided.
Inspired by this confidence, I fly to you, O Virgin of virgins, my Mother.
To you do I come, before you I stand, sinful and sorrowful.
O Mother of the Word Incarnate, despise not my petitions, but in Thy mercy hear and answer me, Amen

 

[Katherine438]

O Blood and Water, which gushed forth from the Heart of Jesus as a fountain of Mercy for us, I trust in You!

Our Father, Who art in heaven, hallowed be Thy name; Thy kingdom come; Thy will be done on earth as it is in heaven. Give us this day our daily bread; and forgive us our trespasses as we forgive those who trespass against us; and lead us not into temptation, but deliver us from evil, Amen.

Hail Mary, full of grace. The Lord is with thee. Blessed art thou amongst women, and blessed is the fruit of thy womb, Jesus. Holy Mary, Mother of God, pray for us sinners, now and at the hour of our death, Amen.

Eternal Father, I offer you the Body and Blood, Soul and Divinity of Your Dearly Beloved Son, Our Lord, Jesus Christ, in atonement for our sins and those of the whole world.

For the sake of His sorrowful Passion, have mercy on us and on the whole world.

Holy God, Holy Mighty One, Holy Immortal One, have mercy on us and on the whole world.