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I often , in my mediation/diary, catch myself relinquishing so much to God, I wonder if others have this issue? how much is too much? Do you ever wonder “how am I giving UP so much control over my life to God?” Is this sane? Is it illusion or faith? Like, Am I heaping coals on my own head by answering my worst fears with “AMEN” so be it? I would be lying to say I don’t have fears, some very bad at times. Perhaps you don’t. And if you don’t have fear, then blessed be to you. This post probably doesn’t pertain to you.
seriously, do you ask yourself: Am I endangering myself by chalking so much up to God? Sure, imho, I understand I have SOME control over what I say, act, and think *(but not necessarily WHAT THOUGHTS give rise to themself and ENTERS MY MIND). For instance, I know the physical body responds healthily to good food, clean water, exercise, breath awareness, present-moment living. I don’t think No prayer life would let me eat 5 donuts, a snickers every day, and have health. Same goes with making money, enterprise, business endeavors… I admit, I think when it comes to relating, in family, dating, friends, fellowship, work, etc… that perhaps that is where fears present themselves the most?
Afterall, in doing adoration shifts in my local parish, I sometimes wonder that outwardly we are a body of Catholics, who sit, stare, and pray in presence of a cracker that we believe has been consecrated and is actually the living physical body of Jesus Christ as instituted by belief in the new testament account of the last supper— Who wouldn’t perhaps look upon that today and rationally say “How preposterous, un-thinking, psychically delusional, and devoid of all reality” would any human be to claim BY FAITH alone, that the something like the blessed sacrament is anything more than a wafer, and the rosary just cool hippie beads?
I read some of St.Faustina’s diary in front of the local blessed sacrament last night- it appears she too had a similar issue. She talked about big inner dark gap or ‘missingness’ of God, then a 'certainty, closeness, nearness, "…
It would be great to see if others experience something similar, and perhaps see and hear how others reconcile it with faith or reasoning… or if they choose other ways ? Thanks
seriously, do you ask yourself: Am I endangering myself by chalking so much up to God? Sure, imho, I understand I have SOME control over what I say, act, and think *(but not necessarily WHAT THOUGHTS give rise to themself and ENTERS MY MIND). For instance, I know the physical body responds healthily to good food, clean water, exercise, breath awareness, present-moment living. I don’t think No prayer life would let me eat 5 donuts, a snickers every day, and have health. Same goes with making money, enterprise, business endeavors… I admit, I think when it comes to relating, in family, dating, friends, fellowship, work, etc… that perhaps that is where fears present themselves the most?
Afterall, in doing adoration shifts in my local parish, I sometimes wonder that outwardly we are a body of Catholics, who sit, stare, and pray in presence of a cracker that we believe has been consecrated and is actually the living physical body of Jesus Christ as instituted by belief in the new testament account of the last supper— Who wouldn’t perhaps look upon that today and rationally say “How preposterous, un-thinking, psychically delusional, and devoid of all reality” would any human be to claim BY FAITH alone, that the something like the blessed sacrament is anything more than a wafer, and the rosary just cool hippie beads?
I read some of St.Faustina’s diary in front of the local blessed sacrament last night- it appears she too had a similar issue. She talked about big inner dark gap or ‘missingness’ of God, then a 'certainty, closeness, nearness, "…
It would be great to see if others experience something similar, and perhaps see and hear how others reconcile it with faith or reasoning… or if they choose other ways ? Thanks
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