magdelaine, God may be calling you to a slightly different vocation, that of a suffering soul. I’m not aware of any orders of nuns who accept those with physical or medical handicaps.
That being said, though, you can do tremendous good by offering up your suffering through the Immaculate Heart of Mary in union with the Sacred Heart of Jesus.
There was a young girl in south Louisiana some time ago. Her name was Charlene Richard. She was about 12, if I recall. She had terminal cancer and was in the hospital to die. A priest I knew, Fr. Brennan, used to visit her daily. She would ask him who he would like her to offer her suffering for that day, and usually, he’d mention someone else in the hospital. After not very long, he said he began noticing that many of these people began to experience extraordinary healing, above what would normally have been expected through medical means. After she died, they were cleaning her room out and found a cache of pain pills she had hidden. She had been purposely not taking her pain pills in order to have more suffering to offer up.
Well, I DO offer up my sufferings to St. Bernadtte and St. Catherine of Sienna, I ask our Lord to ease the pain of others and to help them find peace in His love and mercy in heir time of need. As for not taking meds to create more suffering, I’m sort of chicken that way, and would not want to become so ill I would perish without knowing the good I am doing. I already am suffering from a liver disease that will eventually kill me, and arthritic pains in my back. I also have diabetes, asthma, and neuropathy [very painful] to which I offer up to God for the forgiveness of sins. I have pledged myself to total obedience to God and His Will for me. No matter what that entails. And I hope that in my illnesses that I am treated for, that cures can be made possible for others who must undergo the same diseases and pains in their lifetimes. I hope that God is seeing what my intentions are, that they are for the betterment of mankind, and that I am doing my best to take on suffering for the forgiveness of sins.
Thank you for pointing these things out to me though. I appreciate very much the support that you all have given me. On a positive note, doctors have found some bit of a ‘cure’ for my conditions. CPAP treatment. I have sleep apnea, and it is affecting everything from my asthma and breathing to my diabetes and arthritis. My blood glucose levels are returning to normal, which means I will need less insulin and lose weight, making the arthritis more manageable, and the diabetes in such a controlable state that I may be on very little insulin [almost cured] and my liver will stop being damaged because of the need for less insulin and weight loss. [A cure of my ''fatty liver disease!]
God Bless you all for your prayers!
magdelaine1173
Something to think about.
God bless!
