I just read these threads…
forums.catholic-questions.org/showthread.php?t=103439
forums.catholic-questions.org/showthread.php?t=106180
and i now am depressed beyond belief
if this is true
than i feel I have lost all respect for God…
but i sincerely hope that it is not true
A man who has been born again through Baptism, recieved Communion, faithful to Jesus all of his life, then misses mass and gets hit by a car on the way to whever he was going…is damned?
I thought God was the opposite of this! I thought God was not the judgemental deity of Islam and the Old Testament, I thought God sent his Son, the flesh and bones of the Virgin Mary, God as True Man to DIE for us.
How could the eternal, unimaginable mystery of God dying on the Cross, possibly be undone by one mortal sin!
How!?
I hate the very idea…
I grew up a Protestant all my life…hating the idea of Sola Fide
I knew that faith alone without works is dead
at first i was shaky about catholchism
I felt God reach out to me with his hand
i felt a vocation, a true one
not to the priesthood but to Holy Mother Church
I felt God take me by the hand and guide me to His Church, His Liturgy, His Mother, His beloved Saints, all of this.
I was ready to jump into Catholchism when my final question on Papal Authority was answered…and now this?
Add all the fancy words you like…but the message your giving me is that a lifetime of faith, a truly faithful soul, a baptized being
is all worthless
if somone masturbates and then gets a heart attack.
blasphemy…
thats all i can think of…
Gods word says that both Fresh Water and Salt Water cannot flow from the same spring…
This makes me question everything it took YEARS to accept (about Catholchism)
I feel like everything is collapsing now
I mean…Salvation is the most important part of religion IMO…because it allows us to spend eternity with God
If God will deny me my salvation because I skipped Mass with full consent on the last day of my life
thta is NOT the God I read about in the Bible
that is NOT the God the Early Church fathers wrote about
that is NOT the God even John Paul the II speaks about
a Deity of Love, A deity of mercy…
but this…this is a God of Terror, Judgement, Punishment, and Obession with Laws, Laws, Laws
I feel like crying and killing myself
after all…better get it done now
than die in mortal sin later
this is horrible…
Why would God do this? Why would God send evangelists to my door and plant the seed of the Spirit…putting my soul in jepordy!
Why couldnt he just NOT shared the Gospel with me
and let me die without knowing him
then…id die in ignorance and be SAVED
rather than in constant fear of mortally sinning and getting struck by lightining
It seems to me that Ignorance now can save more than all 7 sacraments put together
and if you tell me otherwise…you contradict yourself
because sinning in ignorance does not damn you
but sinning in consent not only damns you…but nullifies all of the prior sacraments (baptism, eucharist) until your next confession.
I hate this so much!
I wish God would explain this to me!
I feel forsaken and betrayed…somone help.