Unanswerd prayers

[KaneKatholic]

I am trying to build a more intamite relationship with jesus and i go t adoration dailly and a daily rosary prayer…er… lol
but i feel something stopping me from getting to HIM
i and a brown scapular wear for one reason …that mary can teach me to love Jesus as she did
i want a stronger relationship but i feel distant … my prayers to get closer to HIM seem unanswered … i hear stories about so many people with good relationships with jesus so much that they can hear his voice in their hearts telling them what to do and giving them comfort or whatever and…basically…I WANT THAT!!

I WANT TO BE SO CLOSE TO HIM I DESIRE HIM MY WILL AND MIND CHOOSE HIM BUT MY HEART GOES IN A DIFFERENT DIRECTION AND I HATE THAT AND DENY MY HEART… im just getting from a BAD case of scrupulosity and now i cant discern God’s voice properly like for example i told a lie to someone i felt bad went to confession the priest he gave me a penance to confess to the to the person i lied to"to relieve the guilt" but my guilt was relieved with confession…so that next week i went to an older priest who told me that we shouldnt chase words and to let it go and i was completely honest to him(ps. an advisor of mine told me that if lies make situations worse there is no use in confessing it to the one i lied to, but if will make the situation better i should, in this case the situation would be worse)… but it wont stop bothering me…now… i acknowledge that its my feelings and scrupulosity telling me all this
this is a problem that is basically an obstacle that i am now just getting over… but i want to be able to sense Christ in a more profound way in my life and i want to quiet my mind and listen to him HELP ME PLEASE!!

 

[Monica4316]

I’m sure that God sees your desire to know Him more closely :hug1: remember it’s the will that matters! I keep on learning this lesson lol… sometimes I don’t feel anything and at times, even the opposite, but I still want to choose Him. I think that matters and it shows grace is working in your life you wouldn’t have the desire for God if He wasn’t directing you! St John of the Cross said, “if a person is seeking God, the Beloved is seeking them that much more.” (slight paraphrase?)

about the penance… maybe you feel uneasy cause you didn’t do the penance the priest gave you? It’s very important to do the penance, for the absolution to be valid, BUT, it’s something the priest can change… it’s not set in stone… I think it might help talking to that priest again and explaining the situation, and perhaps asking for a new penance

I am sometimes scrupulous too and I think that might come from a distrust in God’s love… He loves you SOOOO much more than you could ever experience here on earth! even if you could feel His love and presence all the time, - that still wouldn’t come close. But we can grasp this reality more through faith.

there might be several things that prevent us from coming closer to God…

• unrepented sin
• lack of prayer, effort (if you pray daily you are fine)
• lack of trust
• a trial that God allows for our growth.

if it’s not 1 or 2, it might be 3 and/or 4… try to work on really trusting God. And if that doesn’t help open you up to Him, than maybe He just wants you to choose Him ‘blindly’ right now that’s not a bad thing at all, that is great for our spiritual growth. But try to trust Jesus. Even if you don’t feel Him in your heart, He is there. After you receive Communion, try talking to Him in your heart, because He is physically present within you at that time!

God bless!

 

[Monica4316]

I was also thinking, maybe the Divine Mercy devotion or the Sacred Heart devotion could help… and try meditating in His sufferings and Passion… all that can bring us closer to God and help us to know Him more intimately and seeking to do His will first in our lives, seeking virtue, and being repentant… that opens us up to God as well, but this should be done with confidence in His grace and mercy. Don’t try to ‘earn’ God’s love… He loves you infinitely and unconditionally already! Just let Him love you try to surrender your will.

 

[baltobetsy]

It’s very important to do the penance, for the absolution to be valid

Monica, you gave a lot of really good advice, but this part was incorrect. Failure to do the penance does not invalidate the absolution. It is a sin to refuse to do it, but the absolution is not affected.

Betsy

 

[KaneKatholic]

Monica, you gave a lot of really good advice, but this part was incorrect. Failure to do the penance does not invalidate the absolution. It is a sin to refuse to do it, but the absolution is not affected.

Betsy

i didnt refuse it , it just would take me a long time to muster up the energy to do it thats all and i did ge preist a new penance from my priest , the visiting priest left (the one thet gave me the first penance) and my priest, my actual confessor told me that i should basically move on and i got another penance so now i can move on i feel alot better now …since easter anyway i think it was a sort os demonic opression during lent which was a very prayerful time for me and i guess i got alot of graces…but yeah im way better now

 

[lemonadish]

I just want to remind you of something that I’ve noticed in myself recently: the fact that you are striving for this and that you want it so bad, means that God is already working in you. He’s so close to you. If it weren’t for Him working in you, you would never be able to desire a closer relationship with Him and His Son.