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Die_Grau_Ecken
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Hello everyone, I am privelleged to have discovered a forum such as this one, and I was directed here by a very wise friend.I have been looking around, and there seems to be an abundance of Catholics here, with experience of solving spiritual difficulties.I have no intention of offending anyone or causing arguments,but I feel as if I need to express myself and share my insight, and your wisdom would be much appreciated.If I am bothering you, please say so, and I will leave.I am really very upset about all this.
I love Jesus with all my heart, and believe he is amazing.I used to be a devout Catholic,but now I feel as if I don’t want to have anything to do with Catholicism anymore (or indeed Christianity.) This is for 2 main reasons-
1.I just cannot agree with everything the Church teaches-For example,we can go to Heaven because of Jesus being crucified.This seems to me to be terrible injustice.I would like to befriend Jesus and serve him (because he was so amazing) but get to Heaven by his bloodshed?No…I have some personal experience of bloodshed, and though it hurts so much,it is certainly nothing compared to his. Crucifixion must be terrible torture,and I could never allow anyone, let alone someone I love, to endure it.I’d honestly rather go to Hell.This is just the main example, there are others too-eg.the Liturgy doesn’t really make sense to me,and although I’ve read the entire Bible,there’s parts of it (such as Leviticus…) that I seriously cannot accept.So I prefer to just serve God by myself.(Of course,I remain devoted to the BVM and the saints-they are amazing and I will always love them.)
2.I’ve noticed that there are plenty of people who are not Christians, yet are extremely good, sensitive,and kindhearted-and there are a lot of Christians who are insensitive and mean.In the past,I’ve really been hurt by them-In fact, they more or less treated me like a worthless disgrace, even though I was trying very hard to please them.I was young and sensitive,and I am still recovering from this.Also, (I don’t like to mention this) they lead a somewhat mundane and shallow life,(to put it very mildly) and I’d really prefer to have little to do with them, let alone share a faith with them.They like to argue, too, and it’s absolutely ridiculous.I clung to Christianity because I believed it was the way to ‘be good’, and I wanted to be good more than anything else.But now I can see that this is not neccesarily true.
I have shed many bitter tears over the injustice of blasphemy, and over the evil ways of the world,and now I come here to clear out ‘the gray corner’ of my soul,and to see if anyone can advise me or make sense of it.I am still young (not yet an adult) so I would like to hear what those of you who are wiser and more experienced have to say.
Thankyou:shamrock2:
I love Jesus with all my heart, and believe he is amazing.I used to be a devout Catholic,but now I feel as if I don’t want to have anything to do with Catholicism anymore (or indeed Christianity.) This is for 2 main reasons-
1.I just cannot agree with everything the Church teaches-For example,we can go to Heaven because of Jesus being crucified.This seems to me to be terrible injustice.I would like to befriend Jesus and serve him (because he was so amazing) but get to Heaven by his bloodshed?No…I have some personal experience of bloodshed, and though it hurts so much,it is certainly nothing compared to his. Crucifixion must be terrible torture,and I could never allow anyone, let alone someone I love, to endure it.I’d honestly rather go to Hell.This is just the main example, there are others too-eg.the Liturgy doesn’t really make sense to me,and although I’ve read the entire Bible,there’s parts of it (such as Leviticus…) that I seriously cannot accept.So I prefer to just serve God by myself.(Of course,I remain devoted to the BVM and the saints-they are amazing and I will always love them.)
2.I’ve noticed that there are plenty of people who are not Christians, yet are extremely good, sensitive,and kindhearted-and there are a lot of Christians who are insensitive and mean.In the past,I’ve really been hurt by them-In fact, they more or less treated me like a worthless disgrace, even though I was trying very hard to please them.I was young and sensitive,and I am still recovering from this.Also, (I don’t like to mention this) they lead a somewhat mundane and shallow life,(to put it very mildly) and I’d really prefer to have little to do with them, let alone share a faith with them.They like to argue, too, and it’s absolutely ridiculous.I clung to Christianity because I believed it was the way to ‘be good’, and I wanted to be good more than anything else.But now I can see that this is not neccesarily true.
I have shed many bitter tears over the injustice of blasphemy, and over the evil ways of the world,and now I come here to clear out ‘the gray corner’ of my soul,and to see if anyone can advise me or make sense of it.I am still young (not yet an adult) so I would like to hear what those of you who are wiser and more experienced have to say.
Thankyou:shamrock2: