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emsher
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Hi everyone,
Just an update and prayer request for those who so kindly supported me in my first thread (sorry I don’t know how to link it here).
Tomorrow is the big day. After getting stuff together and being ready to leave, we had a lull where nothing bad or good really happened. Then tonight my husband went off in a rage again. He got his kitchen knife and smashed it into the bench, cutting it. Then smashed a mug and threw food at the wall and stormed off. All in front of the three kids and me because I criticised his “discipline” (which was telling one of our boys to shut up). Couldn’t reason with him and he just lost it. So I called the DV line again and they have arranged a safe house, supported accommodation for me to go to when husband leaves for uni at 1 pm. Also they have a duty of care so if I fail to call them they will report me to child protection. Which is a great incentive to not slip in to denial and chicken out.
So I’m terrified and sad, and full of emotion, despite my relief and confidence that I’m doing the right thing. My oldest boy (3) already has anxiety issues and I’m so worried about how he will cope in the short term at such a change- crisis housing and then a refuge- even though obviously he will be much better off in the long term. I’m worried about how I will manage too with my anxiety and with my three babies. I know I can only get through this holding on tight to God. Please pray for me. Your prayers have already worked wonders in bringing me clarity and a supported option to leave. On top of that I have a new hope for the future in possible entrance to medical school next year and am nearly finished with my application. Hope I can scrape in. Then I can provide for my kids doing something I love.
Thanks again guys.
Just an update and prayer request for those who so kindly supported me in my first thread (sorry I don’t know how to link it here).
Tomorrow is the big day. After getting stuff together and being ready to leave, we had a lull where nothing bad or good really happened. Then tonight my husband went off in a rage again. He got his kitchen knife and smashed it into the bench, cutting it. Then smashed a mug and threw food at the wall and stormed off. All in front of the three kids and me because I criticised his “discipline” (which was telling one of our boys to shut up). Couldn’t reason with him and he just lost it. So I called the DV line again and they have arranged a safe house, supported accommodation for me to go to when husband leaves for uni at 1 pm. Also they have a duty of care so if I fail to call them they will report me to child protection. Which is a great incentive to not slip in to denial and chicken out.
So I’m terrified and sad, and full of emotion, despite my relief and confidence that I’m doing the right thing. My oldest boy (3) already has anxiety issues and I’m so worried about how he will cope in the short term at such a change- crisis housing and then a refuge- even though obviously he will be much better off in the long term. I’m worried about how I will manage too with my anxiety and with my three babies. I know I can only get through this holding on tight to God. Please pray for me. Your prayers have already worked wonders in bringing me clarity and a supported option to leave. On top of that I have a new hope for the future in possible entrance to medical school next year and am nearly finished with my application. Hope I can scrape in. Then I can provide for my kids doing something I love.
Thanks again guys.