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niall
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I have grown nearly completely tepid as a Catholic…It’s been November since I haven’t felt like God was a complete stranger to me, and although things weren’t terrible in the beginning, I feel like they’re completely spiraling out of control now. I just feel like I don’t have it in me to care anymore. I try to think about God’s love for me, but I can never hold on to it and so I don’t bother. I even try to scare myself into repenting, by reading about hell, God’s judgment, etc. But I have been falling into the same sins over and over again, and I cannot act like I care anymore when I truly don’t. I realize that I’m not even trying at this point, and that is the problem. I don’t have the motivation in me to try.
My life has been nothing but an emotional rollercoaster lately, and all completely negative. I’ll fool myself into falling into the same sins, and then act like it doesn’t matter. But ofc when I try to pray afterwards, I’m completely averted because I know what I’ve done, and I know I’m not trying to change.
I just very desperately need prayers. Please pray that I become motivated, and trust in God’s love and mercy, and love Him in return. And that I am patient with myself. I feel like I’m falling into despair at this point, because I don’t see myself turning away from these sins, and yet I know that I have no idea when death will come. By the time I want to change, it will be too late.
My life has been nothing but an emotional rollercoaster lately, and all completely negative. I’ll fool myself into falling into the same sins, and then act like it doesn’t matter. But ofc when I try to pray afterwards, I’m completely averted because I know what I’ve done, and I know I’m not trying to change.
I just very desperately need prayers. Please pray that I become motivated, and trust in God’s love and mercy, and love Him in return. And that I am patient with myself. I feel like I’m falling into despair at this point, because I don’t see myself turning away from these sins, and yet I know that I have no idea when death will come. By the time I want to change, it will be too late.