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I am struggling with trusting my Spiritual director. I wanted to a spiritual director to escape the subjectivism and trying to discern God’s will on my own, but I also feel convicted that I don’t really want to do God’s will. I am afraid I’ll miss my vocation, because I still love the world, and I get disgusted by the way certain religious texts dismiss marriage and normal life as if it’s somehow sinful. I am deflecting though, and I realize that the real fact is that I am self-willed and selfish. I get messed with really by by mental issues and scrupulosity, which I hope mitigates my guilt to some extent, but I really do believe I am corrupt. I was going to go to confession tomorrow, and wanted to ask for your prayers that I would desire to desire to change.
