St. John of the Cross and St. Teresa of Avila both (wisely) counsel that we should NEVER ask for these extraordinary graces, and if we get them, we should reject them, because as a previous poster said, they could be Satan or another fallen angel in disguise. These are “graces freely given” and as a general rule, are A) extremely rare, and B) occur in the heights of the Teresian interior castle. I would strongly advise you to put away these desires and focus on the ordinary means of grace and sanctification: prayer, sacraments, and virtue. In other words, pray every day, celebrate the sacraments regularly (Eucharist and confession) and live a life of virtue, beginning with the cardinal virtues of prudence, justice, temperance, and fortitude.