And this was the Church that I was raised in. You have said it well & I do wonder if those who grew up & know only the Novus Ordo Mass could have responded as well as many of us did.
I am so sorry. I can only imagine how traumatic and difficult that must have been. Even my mother, who is a mild feminist and liberal, said she ultimately left the Church because it had become something else. She grew up being taught the Church and all of its traditions could never change, whether others agree with that catechesis or not, many were taught that and it was painful to endure. My father stayed in the Church and endured. He doesn’t speak often about it, just went along with the changes, but I know he suffered and I know many people must have suffered a great loss in seeing the their traditions destroyed. **
For 15 years ** I tried to love the “New Mass”. After that I just endured & prayed. I really don’t think that many of our posters have any idea about the pain we felt, about the faith that kept us praying & PRAYING, about the anger we just swallowed rather than spread it around.
I do know what you mean. I tried to force myself to love the new Mass, even though for 16 years of my life, that is all I knew. Something inside me said, “there has to be more. There has to be something greater. After 2000 years-this is the best they could come up with?” Even after going to the Latin Mass on Sundays only, I had to endure the NO on weekdays. I certainly couldn’t speak to anyone about it, except for Our Lord. I know the lonely feeling that you speak of quite well.
I think that the hardest part was the fact that I had two choices…either to bring my children up in this Church that had become very strange in my eyes,
Yes, CradleCath, strange is the correct word. When I have to go to a NO parish, it feels very foreign and strange. Paul VI, upon seeing a demonstration of the NO Mass for the 1st time, when it was all being discussed, said that it produced a strange feeling in him and not in the positive.
or to bring them up in another faith. That wasn’t an option for either me or my husband, so they are “children of the Novus Ordo”. They know very little about Fatima, have probably never asked for a saint’s intercession & have never lit a votive candle in front of a statue.
They attended Catholic schools & we assumed they were being taught correctly. BIG mistake.