I’m severely depressed and I want to die, but I find a lot of humor in this world. It’s a masquerade, the way I see it! Democrat and Republican have little meaning to me, as they have always been a vital part of the masquerade.
As Saint Paul states: In all things, God works for the good. Whatever happens politically, economically, or socially, it does not matter in that the just are headed toward Heaven. Things in this world are simply too phony to take seriously anymore. So get the mask out so as not to offend anyone, fill yourself with faith, hope and LOVE, and welcome to the masquerade!
Blessings Robert
I note someone here has said you have posted a few times about being depressed, Now I may not have a degree in psychology but I do know what you are going through as I’ve been there myself many times.
I have Bipolar 1 disorder and have been through the mill myself, but I’ve come out the other end reasonably unscathed.
I know seeking help is difficult for many reasons, you may feel that no one can help you, that you cant imagine anything but the blackness of what you’re feeling and that you can’t remember the last time you were happy, and you are just too tired to think about moving you may also struggle with the cost of getting therepy and medication but there is help out there.
but I assure you from personal experience that you must, must, must seek help and as quickly as possible. depression doesnt go on its own, it causes damage and psychological trauma.
feeling suicidal isnt a normal feeling or behaviour, you must go to a doctor today before your condition gets worse, and it will untreated.
you need to talk to someone who cares for you like a spouse, parent or close friend, get them to go with you to the doctors if you dont want to go alone, ask them to help you get up and take you to the doctor as being depressed makes moving very difficult, why would you go anywhere when moving just to the bathroom feels like you’ve climbed a mountain.
but you have to fight these ideas that come into your head about killing yourself, you know deep down they arent correct feelings to be having so dont allow them to deprive you of your life… there is hope there is light … I promise you I guarantee it!
It wont happen over night, once you are on medication it will take about 2 weeks for it to start showing any effect, in the mean time keep a mood diary and be accountable to your feelings dont be ashamed of yourself for feeling terrible or having terrible thoughts, you have to work through them one by one… some days will be easy others so hard that you wonder if you have the strength to carry on, but again i assure you that you do have the strength just find that ray of hope that little bit of strength lurking in the back of your mind …
you are crying out for help by posting these questions on here and im reading you loud and clear my friend…
If you would like you are more than welcome to contact me here and just talk about what ever you wish.
but you must go to the doctor right away… its imperative that you do so that you can battle this awful disease and win.
i will be praying for you
danni x