Thank you for your response. Haha yes I understand it’s still Christian it’s just an easier way to explain things to get people to explore their lives if they convert it outside of Christianity etc.
I don’t just convert or move based on spiritual experiences. If I did I would’ve become a shaman. I am currently exploring the Catholic faith and what we believe, and the Orthodox faith and what they believe. It seems the Orthodox faith to me seems more pure, I don’t understand why priests have to be single, I don’t understand why the Catholics believe a lot of things that seem to be a jump from tradition such as immaculate conception (I believe it, but don’t consider it dogma), the ultimate power of the pope, divorce, and I’ve never felt at home with a rosary but have been drawn to the healing power of prayer ropes. The western traditions seem to place much more understanding of what God is while the eastern rights focus on what God isn’t, which to me makes me understand got better. As well, the Western right spoke us on the good Friday Passover, while the eastern rights focus on the resurrection, which I believe is truly more powerful.
As far as talking to a priest, that’s the real problem. I don’t have a priest because I haven’t found the Catholic Church where I feel totally at home. I can’t trust my life and my soul with something that I don’t know it’s true. Not saying Christianity is not true. It is, but I’ve just never felt at church that I feel understands and connects to me spiritually, as well as connects me to who God truly is. I do most of the connecting alone but I long for a community & a connection to God that feels right. I felt that for the first time in an Orthodox church, and I have been looking up the theology and feels more logical to me. However I realize the similarities of all. Somethings about the Orthodox I do not like or how exclusive they are towards Catholics. Catholics are more inclusive toward the Orthodox which I feel is true love.